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@dozycandytuft.bsky.social
ใ ค ใ คใ คใ คใ คใ คใ คโฆยฐ แญ๊ชนแปแกถแกถ๊ซแญข ๊ช๊ช ๐น๐๐๐๐ยฎ ๐ชฑโยฐ ใ คใ คใ คใ คใ คใ คbut when ๊ฐเฆ @hereticofblood.bsky.social เป๊ฑ ใ คใ คใ คใ คใ คใ ค ใ คwalks in, i am loved - ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ แฐ .แ me and my husband . . . it's always been just him and me, together. ใ ค
& then he kissed me. he kissed me with all the power he could muster, making up for all the years, months, weeks, days, minutes, seconds our chapped lips hadn't touched. & finally, it felt like my world was no longer burning around me.
ใ ค ใ คdo you want attention. ใ ค
ใ ค ใ ค( at first, they're silent. brow furrowed, lips uncomfortably pursed - then, he drops his head, their breaths feeling worlds heavier than they had previously. ) ใ ค( he doesn't * know what to say. he doesn't have the words to express the aching in xyr throat. the hazed confusion they felt. ) ใ ค
ใ ค . . . allyster. it's okay to feel hopeless, sometimes. it is from the ashes of despair where new hope springs to life. ใ คat least. . . that is what you taught me to believe. what i have come to believe. pretending that things will get better this way will do us nothing but harm.. ใ ค
ใ ค ใ คi suppose... i guess - i dunno. ใ คit always made sense to me.. when i went through - ใ คwhat i did. ใ คi wanted to make the world * better. not lash back out at it. y'know ? ใ ค
Ah. . . Well . . . I guess their psychology gets mixed up after whatever trauma they experience . . As for why they choose to make the world worse. . Dunno. .
ใ ค ใ คi guess. ใ ค( pausing for a moment, turning the pages to a close. ) ใ ค. . i want to know why some people choose to become violent after being a victim of disparity. ใ คwhat causes a person to choose to make the world inherently worse. ใ ค
Mmm. . . So you're just interested in the thought process of it all, then ? I suppose that makes sense. Fair enough .
ใ ค ใ ค( stifling a chuckle, shaking their head. ) ใ คnot exactly ? ใ คor, perhaps i have been - but, there's more to it i want to understand. ใ ค
[ Sniffle, sniffle . ] . . . Answers ? Have you been victimized or whatever ?
ใ ค ใ คvictimology is the... study of, well, victims. ใ คhow they react, respond to stimulus after the crime they faced . . ใ ค. . . i think i was just, kinda, looking for.. answers. of some sort. ใ ค
I see, i see . . . Never heard of that before .
ใ ค ใ คi know.. but, if i keep saying it isโฆ ใ ค( looking away. pulling their hand away, instead pressed to his own chest. ) ใ ค. . . y - yea. ใ ค
ใ ค . . . it doesn't feel okay. ใ ค
they could lay bare in the utmost detail everything that you had done or said or thought, but the inner heart, whose workings were mysterious even to yourself, remained impenetrable.
ใ ค ใ คโฆ i do know, though. ใ ค( gently laying their hand over his wrist, hazel hues glossed over. ) ใ คitโs okay. ใ ค
ใ ค ใ ค. . . you're right. i'm sorry, allyster. i'm just. . . . . . i don't even know. ใ ค
ใ ค ใ คis โ is there not.. joy in โ * us โ ? ใ คwh - whatever happened to stopping to smell the roses ? ใ ค
you deserve the love you keep trying to give everyone else.
ใ ค ใ ค. . . please. donโt say that. ใ คyou know thatโs not true . . ใ ค
ใ ค ใ คfind joy in the little things ใ ค
ใ ค ใ คvatis didnt show up for national big boob day im gonna kill myse ใ ค
ใ ค ใ คhahah. hahaha ! yeaah . . ใ ค( simultaneously also leaning forward ! ใ คcasually pressing their digits to his chest, goofy ahh grinning up at him. ) ใ ค
Hm, if you saaay sooo [ Slowly leaning forward to flex his big chest ]
ใ ค ใ ค( looks around. ) ใ คyknow what. yeah. i'd like that. ใ ค
the big one