MxAndroo/MisterRoo

@androosmitty.bsky.social

+ linktr.ee/mxandroo + They/Them (AMAB) + Level 43 : Nov. 8th 1982 + NB/Aro/Poly/Demi + Solicitation = Block + PGH PA USA : ENG + Furry, Streamer, Programmer, Fuck! + @duskroo (AD/NSFW) + @arcanaroo (VENT)

Today is a good day so far. Got to see Coyote vs ACME and hung out with a friend at Denny's. Picked up Cinnabon for this coming week, but then had a small spiral once back home. Over all a good day, may even try and stream something chill tonight.

I've been stuck in bed with bad thoughts all day. I question everything that others have said and judged me by. I can't shake that I'm a horrible person with taboo thoughts. I disappoint myself in place of others. I should never be me.

Back to feeling both up and down at the same time makes me feel stuck. Like part of me wants to sleep, but the other part of me wants to be awake. It's exhausting. I wish I had the energy to connect with friends again. Or even talk.

Pent up energy and urges, depression winning and been laying in bed for the past 4 hours. Want to do things, anything, but here I lay. Just want to not be like this. Just want my drive back. Tired of feeling this way.

I think it's time, I can't fall asleep, my head hurts from the darn CPAP, I just don't know what to do with how I feel. I'm exhausted but unable to find rest. My chest hurts but not from pain. Just going to lay here I guess. Not worth much else.

It's like, feeling as if I should do things but just, can't muster an effort unless I'm stressed into it. Or I stress myself into doing things and feel half assed the entire time and just want to go back to trying to sleep but failing that as well. I don't know how to survive this.