Akio (they/them)

@furisketoakio.bsky.social

Transmasc Enby 🏳️‍⚧️ | Bi/Ace | Furry | Casual Speedrunner | AuDHD | Shiba Dog

I hate to do this after going through the trouble of setting everything up for it, but I'm going to have to cancel Halloweekend this year. It's been an exhausting week, and also with Adam's current sleep schedule, I would have to start stream later than I'd want.

Of course the one time I make a heartfelt shoutout to my partner after my run on Passion Project, he fucking missed it because he fucking NOPED OUT OF THE STREAM ON THE LAST HIT ON EGG DRAGOON. This fucking jackass, I swear.

I really hate that my brain makes me feel shitty after having to cancel/say no to things. Like, I know that my mental/physical well-being should always come first, but I have this fear of losing out/guilt complex about it.

If anyone's wondering why there hasn't been a stream since June, it all came down to autistic inertia. After I finished the Shadow Gens stream, I was feeling elated and feeling good about doing streams again. Then...my period started, and after that, my drive just died.

Unfortunately as bullshit as the AI stuff Twitch may be implementing, I don't see myself leaving the platform anytime soon. I'm autistic and once I get comfortable using something, it tends to be very hard to adjust to something new.

I was going to do a special stream today for Sonic's birthday, but not only did I only get 2 hours of sleep last night, but my shoulder is rekt from working on bracelets yesterday. I will make up for today sometime this week if possible.

Now that I finished Shadow Generations, I can give my honest opinion. Great ideas, just not all of them were executed well. The final boss was big asscheeks. Would I play it again? Maybe. I have thought of speedrunning it, but that's a big maybe.

Has anyone ever struggled to get back into streaming due to executive dysfunction/anxiety? I really, really want to stream again especially since I went through the trouble of getting a new layout setup and everything. But...I'm met with decision paralysis on what to stream.