and this isn’t like oh pity me my life sucks I suck. I just like im in a valley right now. I know I don’t suck. I’m just like not batting 100 rn. I’m batting like 60 when I should be batting 80. Also uhh people are really hard. I’m not good with people because im not good with myself lol.
like i know what i have to do. I’ve known that for a while, it’s just i tend to stop and start, get hit with life, stop and start. I just have to sit and just fucking Do these things. It’s not that hard, it’s just I have a problem with forming habits. I need habits lol.
think i need to go on some kind of sabbatical. Figure out what i am, i keep thinking i know but all im left with are pieces. i keep half ass-ing my life. I need to do some shit for real, get healthy, finish some work certs, find a big art project to do. solve my weaknesses with determination.
10 million palaces hastily constructed palaces lay on top of each other. kings of kings of kings of nothing, each bickering over their share of the empty. their war is nothing, their lordship hollow, yet they make serfs of us. i am so tired of the toil.
I think the problem is no one knows what the fuck a rendezook is anymore
I have a crazy fucking idea, im doodling at work about it. If i can execute on this shit im the goat
the coiled snake you so delicately placed inside my head is gorging itself on my thoughts you know.
okay so like there’s not much lore with my little drawings but this last one does interconnect. Eltecta is the dark mirror of my character Alecto. Alecto is in constant battle to control the power given to them by a dark god named Nadir. Eltecta is a look at an Alecto who fails to control that power
