“Why am I trying to become what I don’t want to be … when all I want is out there, waiting for me the minute I say I know who I am.” - Arthur Miller, Death of a Salesman
Alykhan Asaria
@alykhanasaria.bsky.social
Living with anorexia and OCD. Mental health volunteer and independent researcher. Please share my pinned post to improve understanding and compassionate care. https://www.researchgate.net/profile/Aly-Asaria
"You always smile but in your eyes your sorrow shows." - Hary Nilsson
Is it okay to dream the same dream over and over again, even if you know that it will never ever come true?
“Find out who you are and do it on purpose.” - Dolly Parton
There are few things more insulting than someone thinking that your hard, deeply thoughtful work is the product of artificial intelligence.
When someone has very little that makes life feel worth living, taking away even a small part of that is deeply cruel.
“They'll never understand that boy and his kind And all they comprehend is a f****** dollar sign" Zach Bryan”
When you create dreams for yourself and then pursue them relentlessly, knowing full well that they are not possible, but what are the alternatives – hopelessness, emptiness, nothingness?
Don’t know how to contribute positivity. Don’t want to bring negativity. Unseen. Unheard. Unheld.
We can restrict children’s access to harmful social media while also demanding that platforms are made safe enough for them. This should not be framed as either/or.
Trying really hard not to be found yet, deep down, wanting to be found. In trying to hide from others, I lose myself.
Feeling undeserving is such a huge part of many people's eating disorders, including but not only feeling undeserving of food. It doesn't help when those who are supposed to care make them feel unworthy of that care.
After the initial pain of rejection, it can feel liberating to no longer have to please the liars and cheats who pretended to care.
The paradox of self-control: you try so hard to have control that you end up out of control.
“Until I feared I would lose it, I never loved to read. One does not love breathing.” - Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird
Too many ideas to write down and too little brain space to store them safely ➡️ MIND OVERLOAD
Please share this very important participant call for South Asians (18+, UK-based) with lived or living experience of eating difficulties, and family members, friends, or caregivers. The research aims to amplify voices too often unheard and improve culturally sensitive support.
“You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view... Until you climb inside of his skin and walk around in it." - Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird
"So tired of the straight line And everywhere you turn There's vultures and thieves at your back"
Not everything framed as ‘harm reduction’ actually reduces harm. We should be careful about presenting starvation/overexercise as harm reduction, as everybody has different physical requirements, and what may be less harmful for one person can be extremely harmful for another.
The encouragement – explicit and implicit – of disordered eating by people in authority and celebrities makes me so angry because they are manufacturing progressive 'new normals' that make recovery from eating disorders increasingly difficult.
Healing doesn't mean losing or forgetting the part of you that suffered. Sometimes that part of you becomes the source of your strength.
"The body-positivity movement was touted as the solution... Until, that is, semaglutide turned up, and some of the most public faces of body positivity... swiftly jumped ship and can now be found talking about their 'weight-loss journeys'." - Hadley Freeman
Need to get away, to start again, to find somewhere safe and protected.
“In order to find the patient, we must first look for the patient in ourselves.” Christopher Bollas
An incarcerated mind is like a prison without walls, but no one sees that you’re trapped inside.