funny how suddenly you find yourself wanting to ask your mother how granny is doing bc it's snowing and you always talked to her about the weather but she is gone for 3 years now. old habits never go with them, huh?
jay ☻
@anpanjay.bsky.social
art & silly thoughts (she/her • ace) no reposts/edits https://anpanjay.carrd.co
i'm having my final asd diagnosis appointment mid february and the more time passes the more nervous i become. the first appointment was quite chill and the psychiatrist actually the nicest one out of those i had in the past but i'm so nervous and don't know what i'll do with the answers.
literally been seeing u.s. accounts having "frozen" videos, even just tarot reading accounts, left and right. but then listening to the new american tiktok owner or whatever he is, it's not mind boggling to witness and all have seen this censorship coming. it's and outrage nontheless.
just make me never find any man ok in any way so i can move on live a happier life and never fall into the trap of developing a crush ever again.
thx to pcos i'm on my 3rd week of my period and my raging hormones making me miss people i shouldn't. also feeling miserable on top. it's so stupid.
it's tiring to maneuver social rules that make no sense and not get lost in all the nonsense people say and not say a thing at the same time. just tell me you like me. straightforward. i'll gently tell you my feelings, whatever they are, i promise. this constant limbo of guessing is 🫨
and how do you know if someone likes you?? i actually don't know and was always so totally wrong when i thought someone liked me in the past lol. and i'm scared to show too much in case i am wrong yet again. 😮💨
how does it feel to have someone yearning for you? watching you from the sidelines, admiring you, getting lost in the mundane things you do, all the while thinking "wow, i like them". and a person you actually like back. i really wanna know how that feels. so long it has only been me doing that.
it's one of those days on that i'm eepy and think a lot of silly thoughts.
why do we as human beings think it's normal to have the bodily remains of insects poked on a needle hanging on our walls? (besides natural history museums, i kinda see the aspect there) don't they have the same right to rest as we think humans do?
Isn’t it interesting how little the average person nowadays knows about worldly events of the renaissance, yet nearly everyone knows the Mona Lisa? Goes to show how important art is after all. And how nothing can ever replace it, not even AI. Because you can’t replace, the most human core of all.
☆ 2025 WRAPPED ☆ Honestly, I burnt out somewhere around halfway through the year :,) But there are still pretty boys, friend art, and things I'm still not allowed to share yet. And I did my first two zines ! Ty for sticking around 💛
she hasn't pooped. went to the vet for a 200€ enema BUT SHE HAS POOPED NOW. and we also found something strange in her bowel. a small thing she must've swallowed around the time i was in korea. it's wandering and the vet says she will poop it out someday but i wanna know what it is lol
jay ☻@anpanjay.bsky.social · 8mo agoyear is starting great with a major headache and my cat not pooping for 48 hrs after getting a plastic cone AFTER licking fur off her belly and feetsies but at least i can go home earlier with my overtime hours and hopefully minou has pooped until then q u q
year is starting great with a major headache and my cat not pooping for 48 hrs after getting a plastic cone AFTER licking fur off her belly and feetsies but at least i can go home earlier with my overtime hours and hopefully minou has pooped until then q u q
may you all remain as silly as you were this year and maybe even become a little sillier ♥︎
cmyk bores the life out of me but i need it to print and that fucks me up so bad. i'm too stupid to get this extreme pop of color working that i do in rgb.
a white and black cat is making a funny face while looking at the camera .
Alt: a white and black cat is making a funny face while looking at the camera .
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hmm lemme introduce myself. i'm jay and i do love making personal art inspired by everyday life, thoughts and feelings ✨
back from deleting all illus i could find on twitter. felt like ripping my heart out. nice.
a man in a suit and tie is pointing his finger
Alt: a man in a suit and tie about to cry while signaling with his hand "no more" with a swish of his hand above his shoulder.
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deleting every illustration of mine i can find on my twitter account bc they are gonna do some weird shit over there. but that hurts me more than just leaving my account be and come here. all the proof i was about to make it over there, all the love i got, now vanishing into data hell.
ANYWAY~ after an exhausting end of the year marathon at work i'm finally on a few days of calm. not visiting my family, just cooking a vegan meal for a friend and spending time with her at the market tomorrow and the rest will be me snuggling with my kitty and doing whatever i feel like ehehe
fascinating how i don't really have an online personality anymore since i stopped following kpop content. ever since twitter was gone for me i clawed at the last glimpse of hope that was blsky to keep in the loop but now? who am i outside of that? what do i have to tell without it relating to bts?
my #artvsartist2025 early this year. i'm amazed i even did so many illustrations this year but then most of them were politically motivated.
is anyone here interested in my personal art? i am not going to do any bts art anymore so it will be either this account dies or i start posting my personal stuff here only. 😗
take me back to the day i was blissfully unaware of my gut feeling (hello delayed emotional processing) & was just being happy for myself. i look at them now & nothing comes to mind. blank. no feelings whatsoever. & i try my hardest to still think everything through. see it from diff. angles, etc.
jay ☻@anpanjay.bsky.social · last yr.sitting at work, running on 3h of sleep for the past 24h, picked confettig from the street like a trash panda bc i sat close yet not close enough BUT run seokjin was so worth it all. it was such a unique concert experience and seokjin is the cutest patootie who wants to see army nothing but happy 😭
i feel a certain kind of achievement when i make men who drive fucking teslas uncomfortable. like yeah babe, be as uncomfortable as you can. i love to see it xoxo