i miss everybody

still thinkin about jmart on my own time, if anyone wants to read about them being dads and also sad and also so so so in love with each other archiveofourown.org/works/61087150

hey do you guys want to think about jon and martin being in love and also dads with me. been thinkin about it

also i learned to make toffee today and it was really good and it wasn't as hard as i was worried it would be so that was also nice

anyways i'm still just trying to think about jmart being in love all the time forever because they physically replaced a hefty percentage of my brain so if you want them talkin about sex for ace day which is every day for me so it's not late archiveofourown.org/works/64547071

anyways if you're into jmart being dads and also being so sad i'm chillin in the space still because it's easier to handle despair when you can put it on fictional men archiveofourown.org/works/610871...

in the vein of grabbing what joy you can with both hands i made a pomegranate julep with too much bourbon and a ton of mint to try to smooth out all that bourbon and sat on the porch with the dog to listen to the rain on the tin roof and it was really nice

can't believe i didn't talk about the day i picked to be martin's birthday yesterday. anyways happy day after the day i picked to be martin's birthday day bc i thought it's fun if there's a whole day dedicated to loving people and he missed the mark

coworker caught me singin a quiet little song to myself about how i was going to throw myself into the river

great news. u can put that luster dust stuff in candy if you want it to be very pretty and shiny. bad news. u will want to eat so much even tho mica is one of those "only eat a little bit" things. selfish news. i made it and i don't have to share so i'm the one who'll eat it so who's gonna sue me

sold enough candy at the craft market to have sold out of a whole flavor for the first time and i got some movement again on the coffee shop i was talking to a while back 🪅🌈

my biggest problem with discord is that i'm constantly at risk of throwing grocery lists and appointment reminders in any which server or dm bc i forget to check where i am. hello patreon discord i've never used here's my dentist's phone number. this isn't discord's fault but it is a struggle i face

very annoying that the only time i can actually get any kind of writing done on a wip is when i'm sick. sitting on my couch on a regular sunday? 15 words, edited 11 times. head feels like it's a pressure cooker and my brain is a pork roast? 3k before noon

anyways. rainbows pt 2 where I make everyone look how thin I pulled it this time. fucked up the math and put twice as much flavor as needed in it so the colors are a little pink but it still tastes good. still gotta get better at shaping but it's progress

the thing that's so exhausting i think is some people saying "there's time to stall and that might be enough to minimize damage and help people stay afloat for a while" and others saying "if you don't have your 3 acre homestead and 20 person signal network set up now you might as well call it quits"

you ever think "i'm gonna grab my tarot deck and pull a card to do some personal reflecting" then the card you pull says "thought i wouldn't bring that up didn't you. you stupid motherfucker" and you just have to deal with that because what could you say back to hurt the card's feelings. it's paper

blueberry n raspberry

marshmallow n chocolate (don't look at the purple bits i didn't dust off)

i want to think about post-post-apocalypse dad jon being scared to read books to his kid again. i want this guy refusing to buy used kids' books and quarantining new ones before they come inside and reading them a hundred times alone bc he'd rather something happen to him than martin or the baby

i weighed all my candy just to see how severe the toll of the candy madness that has overtaken me is and i have 26lbs of candy in my house without adding ribbons

well they're way beefier than the last run but they taste nice blackberry lemonade

me, a guy who makes candy every week and has like twenty pounds of candy in his house he just has to deal with: i miss making candy i wish i was making candy rn

anyways one of my favorite things to think about with jmart dads is them saying shit like it's totally normal without thinking that they then have to explain to their kids. oh, ummm yeah, your dad is missing two ribs. uh. genetic! just happened! no, we got you all checked and you're full of bones

with transgender all things are possible

three separate coworkers commenting on the fact that i replaced my work jeans that are finally past just-one-more-repair by approaching me to say "so, no holes?" with no further greeting

once again wishing for just one "the poor haunted child,,,, has drawn the entity,,,," reveal and it's an actual kid's drawing that looks like a scribbly crayon lump with limbs. like u can make actual kid's drawings scary without relying on a highly detailed grown up idea of scary illustrations

i gotta start talking about podcast men again. i miss them (<- guy who thinks about them in his work daydreams and plays in a sandbox about them being dads every day still now half a decade on)

do u ever think "maybe if i was playing dnd it would fix me." what if i could make up a guy and roll dice about it

anyways jmart being FILs is tied to jmart being grandpas because i think it's cute if one of their kids is like "crazy timing, we just found out we're having a baby and our lease is almost up, can we move in so you can help us with the baby (<- lying bc she's worried about her dads being old)"

i'll talk about podcast men eventually but i'm still in the candy zone wherein i have so much candy i want to not be in my home anymore and all my podcast man thoughts seem too specific for broadcast lately, i'm thinking about jmart being fathers in law we're getting too niche