These are just some snapshots of my life growing up in Singapore, a society with a poor understanding of neurodivergence (particularly during the 90s), where I had no access to the support I truly needed. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/semi-sp...

Growing up as a semi-speaking, undiagnosed Autistic person in Singapore

These are just some snapshots of my life growing up in a society with a poor understanding of neurodivergence (particularly during the 90s), with no access to the support I truly needed.

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This is probably the kind of post I should’ve done at the beginning of the year or end of last year, but if you’ve read some of my recent posts, you’ll know I haven’t been in the right headspace since late last year. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/in-out-...

What’s In and Out for me in 2026

This is probably the kind of post I should’ve done at the beginning of the year or end of last year, but if you’ve read some of my recent posts, you’ll know I haven’t been in the right headspace since...

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The world was telling me my reality was wrong. I learnt to override my own instincts to align with what adults told me was true. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/trust-m...

Why I struggle to trust myself

The world was telling me my reality was wrong. I learnt to override my own instincts to align with what adults told me was true.

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2026 has been really overwhelming for me so far. Aside from everything that’s going on in the world, I’m still feeling destabilised over possibly being misdiagnosed with selective mutism for 30 years. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/2026-co...

My focus for 2026: community building

2026 has been really overwhelming for me so far. Aside from everything that’s going on in the world, I’m still feeling destabilised over possibly being misdiagnosed with selective mutism for 30 years.

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Here’s a life hack you could try out this year if you’re prone to rejection sensitivity and impostor syndrome. (It has become kind of a tradition for me to repost this every new year!) www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/imposto...

How I deal with impostor syndrome and rejection sensitivity

I keep a log of compliments I’ve received in a note-taking app on my phone. I take a look at them whenever I’m experiencing impostor syndrome or rejection sensitivity.

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Reminders for the new year!

Tired of explaining why neither “selective” nor “situational” mutism fits my experience. Here’s a term that actually does. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/virtual...

Selective mutism? Situational mutism? No. I am a virtual mute.

Tired of explaining why neither “selective” nor “situational” mutism fits my experience. Here’s a term that actually does.

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I probably sound a little bitchy and defensive in this post. But honestly, who wouldn’t be if they had to endure a lifetime of bullshit? I’m done accommodating people’s comfort at my own expense. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/actuall...

When every system tells you the same story about yourself—that you’re defective, lazy, unintelligent, incapable—it’s almost impossible not to believe it. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/systemi...

How systemic inequities lead to internalised ableism

When every system tells you the same story about yourself—that you’re defective, lazy, unintelligent, incapable—it’s almost impossible not to believe it.

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For a very long time, I had this impression that only people who went to university, were super learned, and spoke eloquently could be advocates or activists. I’m just a girl who can’t speak “normally” and never attended university. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/imposto...

Impostor syndrome as a semi-speaking advocate

Surely there are other Singaporean Autistic advocates who are much more intelligent, qualified, eloquent, and respectable than I am. I’m just a girl who can’t speak “normally” and never attended unive...

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Identifying your level of support needs in Singapore is confusing (at least in my experience). I hope this blog post gives you a nuanced view of how autism and support needs are perceived in different cultural contexts! www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/medium-...

Coming to terms with having medium support needs

Identifying your level of Autistic support needs in Singapore is confusing (at least in my experience).

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🤯 Found out that October is an awareness month for many things… - Selective/Situational Mutism Awareness Month - ADHD Awareness Month - AAC Awareness Month - Disability Employment Awareness Month - Down Syndrome Awareness Month - Breast Cancer Awareness Month

For Selective/Situational Mutism Awareness Month, I’m reposting these 2 deeply vulnerable posts I wrote earlier this year. I hope my sharing helps people better understand the deeper aspects of Selective/Situational Mutism. Part 1: www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/selecti...

How my selective mutism is connected to childhood trauma

I was diagnosed with selective mutism at the age of four, and my selective mutism has always been unusual in its pattern: I was completely mute around my grandparents until the day they died, while I ...

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Idk what possessed me to write a long-ass post about my celebrity crushes but here ya go! www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/celebri...

Special interest infodump: a history of my celebrity crushes

It was a consistent recurring pattern throughout my life: I would go through phases of becoming completely obsessed with a particular male celebrity. And then after a period of time—around a year or s...

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I wonder if there are other Autistic or Neurodivergent people out there who play The Sims in a similar way that I do. Let me know if you do! www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/inner-w...

Exploring my inner world through The Sims

I had an idea one day to create and play Sims that represent different parts of myself, as a supplement to my Internal Family Systems (IFS) work. I figured it’d be a fun and creative way to visualise ...

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Here are some ideas I have on what I’d like to see in a job training programme for Autistic people, based on my lived experience: www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/job-tra...

What I would like to see in a job training programme for Autistic people

After sharing about my horrific experience with a job training programme for Autistic people in Singapore, I’ve been thinking a lot about what a truly supportive programme would look like. Here are so...

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For most of my life, I didn’t know how to scream. Now I’m learning to scream like my rock idols and reclaiming my anger. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/learnin...

Learning to scream like my rock idols

For most of my life, I didn’t know how to scream. Now I’m learning to scream like my rock idols and reclaiming my anger.

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This was a difficult post for me to write, but I felt it was important to share this story so that other Singaporean Autistics who had similar experiences wouldn’t feel alone. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/job-tra...

My horrible experience with a job training programme for Autistic people in Singapore

I’ve mentioned a few times before that I had an awful experience with a job training programme for Autistic people in Singapore. I talked a bit about it in my “Autistic As Fxxk manifesto” post, but af...

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I look at close to 100 stories a week and even more outside of work. I’ve done this ten years. This is among the most horrific things I’ve ever read — testimony from dying children whose access to medicine has been cut off by the Trump administration. www.npr.org/sections/goa...

Haunted by hopelessness: 12 Zambians share their stories as HIV drugs run out

Mothers and children, husbands and wives, doctors, truck drivers and religious leaders are all grappling with the fallout from the sudden U.S. cuts in aid.

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In response to RFK Jr. saying that Autistic people “will never pay taxes. They’ll never hold a job. They’ll never play baseball. They’ll never write a poem. They’ll never go out on a date. Many of them will never use a toilet unassisted.”

Sharing this interview I did with Autism Dialogues for Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month! I think it gives a good overview of my background and experiences as an Autistic person in Singapore. autismdialogues.com/2024/08/15/i...

Interview 41: Rachel (from Autistic As Fxxk)

Forty-first interview on Autism Dialogues.

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This Autism Acceptance/Awareness Month, please remember our neurokin who lost their lives to systemic racism and ableism. Rest in peace Victor Perez. And I still haven’t forgotten Ryan Gainer, who we lost last year. 💔

Police violence against neurodivergent and disabled people is a pervasive and systemic problem. We collect resources on our page “The Cult of Compliance and the Policing of the Norm”. stimpunks.org/policing/

The Cult of Compliance and the Policing of the Norm

If my children are autistic or mentally ill or both, I don’t want them to grow up in a world where their humanity is questioned every single day, or where police brutality based on their disability st...

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Nicole Filippone, Autistic Advocate & Author@nicolefilippone.bsky.social · 2y ago

Victor Perez was a nonspeaking 17 yo autistic boy with Cerebral Palsy who didn't understand English. Several days ago in an absolutely unfathomable incident, he was shot 9x by police after he didn't "comply" with their demands (made in English). I've been struggling to find words to address this...

Sharing this for Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month as a reminder that some countries and cultures are decades behind in their views of autism (and disability in general), and Autistic people such as myself struggle a lot in such places. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/autism-...

How autism is viewed in Singapore (spoiler alert: it’s bad!)

Consuming content about autism in most Singaporean media can be triggering for me. The narrative is often either “Look how brave and inspiring these parents are for having to care for this poor tragic...

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Sharing this for Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month! ♾️ Download My Autistic Survival Kit customisable mini-zine for free and print it out or fill it out digitally! Download link: www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/autisti...

After sharing my last post about the connection between my selective mutism and childhood trauma, more memories and realisations have continued to surface. Perhaps they finally feel safe enough to resurface now that both my grandparents are gone. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/selecti...

How my selective mutism is connected to childhood trauma (part 2)

After sharing my last post about the connection between my selective mutism and childhood trauma, more memories and realisations have continued to surface. Perhaps they finally feel safe enough to res...

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Rachel (she/xe) 🇸🇬 | Autistic As Fxxk ♾️@autisticasfxxk.com · 2y ago

This was a very hard and deeply vulnerable post for me to write, but my inner child really wants people to understand what I went through. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/selecti...

Sharing this for Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month! ♾️ I wrote this manifesto in 2016, after quitting a job I was placed in by a job training programme from an autism organisation. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/manifesto

Autistic As Fxxk manifesto

I wrote this manifesto in 2016, after quitting a job I was placed in by a job training programme from an autism organisation.

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I’m running a 15% off sale at my Etsy shop for Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month! Check it out at autisticasfxxk.etsy.com! Buying stuff from my Etsy shop is a way to support the work I do here, so that I can continue creating more free content and resources for Autistic folks!

Ding ding ding! I think I finally figured out why I started whispering. Since my grandparents lived with us and I was completely mute to them, I had to whisper when talking to my parents or sister so that my grandparents wouldn’t overhear my voice.

Rachel (she/xe) 🇸🇬 | Autistic As Fxxk ♾️@autisticasfxxk.com · 2y ago

This was a very hard and deeply vulnerable post for me to write, but my inner child really wants people to understand what I went through. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/selecti...

I think where I’m at now is I can now clearly see my mutism was a rational response to everything I experienced in childhood, and it makes me so mad I was made to feel there was something inherently wrong with me ’cos of that, which led to feeling I was fundamentally inferior to other human beings.

Rachel (she/xe) 🇸🇬 | Autistic As Fxxk ♾️@autisticasfxxk.com · 2y ago

This was a very hard and deeply vulnerable post for me to write, but my inner child really wants people to understand what I went through. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/selecti...