gonna have to reduce my squat weight until my form improves because fuckin' ooowwwwwww
interview for next week at a place that has ... mixed reviews let's say i'm at the point where i can be less picky now, so i'll do my best but also i'm not gonna be heartbroken if i don't get it pay wouldn't be that great anyway probably couldn't even get my own place with that
asked a friend if she knew any single ladies and she said the only ones she knew that are out of a relationship are all dating women now and i was like "that's fair"
one year now since my mom passed while i'm doing better than even just a couple months ago it's still a loss i feel deeply i hope what i'm doing now would make her happy, but i wish she could see it, even if she didn't understand it i miss having that kind of love in my life
next month is one year sobriety btw unless you count the one beer i had at christmas and the one cannabis gummy i had like six months ago
the one thing about living with my roommate is that it has made me more determined than ever to NEVER allow myself to be so complacent as to allow myself to be a active detriment to the wellbeing of the person i'm living with
in other news, results of two and a half months of lifting these arms were but twigs before this
next thursday it will be one year since my mother died it's hard to believe it's been that long, time has both stood still and kept moving ever since i don't know if i'll ever be the same as i was before i miss her so much every day
successful gym this morning by getting there early, leaving before 9am, beating some upper body PRs AND getting to see the gym crush
my doc forgot to send in my brain meds prescription and now i wont get the refill for at least two days and i'm going to be fucked over with withdrawal symptoms fuuuuuuck me
monday morning continues to be the superior gym time because there are fewer people there, but i think i may need to start going even earlier and i was thinking this BEFORE i saw the pretty short cropped haired person was already there when i was arriving
i usually go to the gym mon to fri in the morning, but because i skipped mon and tues for recovery from full indie im here this morning and it’s so busy i hate it
having anxiety while also being somewhat intuitive is a fucked up combination are the vibes i'm sensing real, or just something my brain is making up? i'll probably never know but i certainly hope someone saves me from this exhausting loop one way or another
jeez, what a morning, certainly didn't expect this to happen on my way to get groceries gonna write about it to get it out of me i was on the way to the grocery store when i saw what looked like a couple having a somewhat physical argument it didn't look like anyone was being hurt, but odd
i feel like i make a terrible impression of myself on this website because i usually post when i'm at home on my computer and that's usually i'm in the worst mood i'm much nicer when i'm out and about around folks positively a delight
a cool fortune image thing. let's see what i get. "your fall will be spectacular." man, what?
i don't think i wouldn't mind feeling lonely if i actually lived alone
dropped 5 pounds directly on to my pinky toe at the gym this morning it then rolled away and i had to go and get it i'm fine, just a little more purple than i was before
talkin' to my doc today and i'll be asking if going to the gym five days a week is too much so that when i tell people that and they respond with "that seems like a lot" i can tell them my doc says it's okay and if he doesn't, well i guess i'll just go down to four ... if i havta
some days i feel like thinking or hoping things will improve just sets me up for further disappointment if i just accept my current state as the best it can get maybe i can at least learn to live with it
i had a dream i was dating exactly the type of lady i am hopelessly in to and i just think that's an incredibly unfair thing for my brain to do
another lifting milestone these are pretty fun hooray lower body day im so tired
learning the person who said i was posting about depression to get attention has multiple accounts for each of their personalities and they each have depression has been ... well .. it's certainly something
unexpectedly got a bit of extra cash today on top of it being a three (government provided) payday month you know what that means! fancy hair produuuuucts!