sorry. appreciate anyone who reached out. won’t go into what happened. will try to stop posting.

i’m sorry to everyone i failed. i tried for so long to pull myself out of this hole yet have fallen further into hopelessness no matter what. nothing helps anymore and despite receiving help, it’s just never enough. i’m ready for this to end. i wish i could have made it through.

everything keeps getting worse no matter how hard i try to hold on and i can’t do this anymore. things keep going wrong. i just want it to end. i’m sorry.

i don’t know how to say this, but i think it’s best that nobody hears from me ever again. for a long time i’ve been a burden on others and no matter how hard i’ve tried to get better, i just can’t pull myself out of this spiral. it’s gotten worse for years and i see no light anymore. i’m sorry.

i wish my life had amounted to anything meaningful

genuinely what am i supposed to do anymore. shit just keeps getting worse and im inevitably just going to start doing this shit over and over again where i vent publicly and make an ass of myself because i feel like i have nobody. i'm so tired of all the things that keep happening

i’m sorry

im sorry to anyone ive concerned regarding my mental health and well being. im still receiving help but barely holding on. i really want things to get better and im sorry for being like this

quick depression break for deltarune chapter 5 crackpot theories

makes me wonder if what got me banned was posting spritesheets with grid patterns, plus the mass reports from bigots. they really don’t want to admit that anything is their fault here because that would completely undermine their moderation and highlight the problem with their reliance on ai

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One Discord staff member claims this was already fixed, so I'm hoping that bit is true. But "this has nothing to do with AI" and "the bans are temporary until manually reviewed"? Bull-fucking-shit lmfao. My infractions are still standing and only your worthless AI moderators reviewed it. Fuck you.

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers crackpot theory with zero basis or reasoning: what if the name easter eggs are characters that are important to the prophecy, and the Knight is kidnapping them to stop the prophecy from being fulfilled? effectively: it's a hit list.

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okay done posting about deltarune for now back to feeling horribly depressed ✌️

hyperfixations are a hell of a thing to help with extreme depression but my god is it absolute hell to combine that with being a deltarune fan and its release dates

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deltarune chapter 5 spoilers maybe like this? for "game worlds," I didn't visualize it properly -- think of them more like parallels, each with their own layers underneath, rather than existing as one layer. idk

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers so gaster has different people working undercover in the simulation to make sure things go smoothly. “normal npc” did something to onionsan to keep them from discovering something. sans is supposed to observe but got too attached and involved with toriel.

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deltarune chapter 5 spoilers Maybe Ralsei's a tree with roots spanning all of Hometown: - hat form and door resemble tree - distinction of plants as separate from lightners and darkners, ralsei's jealousy of flowery, identity crisis - can appear in any dark world - "darkness brewing under the town"

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers i'm now more confident in my crack theory that deltarune's world is fake -- it's a simulation housed within the broken machine in sans's lab. sans didn't come from deltarune, he's controlling a character in it, like the chapter 3 boards.

i wish i would have been in a good enough place to have streamed my playthrough of chapter 5 because i would have absolutely done the deku voice for you know who the entire playthrough

i’m not exactly doing great nor ready to talk to people again yet but genuinely what was that entire chapter

Hi, been a good bit. Currently receiving day therapy and trying to get myself together. I know I’ve made concerning posts here and there and I apologize for that. Haven’t been in a great nor stable state of mind for months now, and while I’m still struggling a lot, I’m trying my best.

It’s with a heavy heart that I’m leaving everything and abandoning my dreams. Thank you for the memories.

at least for the foreseeable future, I'm not going to be streaming anymore. similarly I'm considering either taking a long break from, or leaving, all projects I work on. I just feel like I've lost hope and my drive to do anything, all of my aspirations. I don't look forward to anything anymore.

can more people i know please move to Fluxer and start using it. really need to talk to people

The past month or so of not having access to Discord, and by extension contact with all of my friend groups, has honestly been devastating to me mentally. Trying to pull through, but feeling crushing loneliness and being unable to enjoy anything for long enough to distract my thoughts isn't helping.

found a whole operation of unmanned youtube channels making completely unchecked long form slop videos where the ai voice simulacra regularly trips up & does this for a full ten minutes every time. all the very legit comments are like "NO! THATS NOT TRUE! YOU LIE HE DID NOT" & never acknowledge it.

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crack theory but what if deltarune’s entire world is just a simulation or artificial world within that broken machine in sans’s lab, and all the characters have to grapple with the fact they aren’t real. how do sans, papyrus, and gaster play into this? hell if i know lol