Lai

@betterthislai.bsky.social

I don't draw. There are no paywalls. No minors. I have borderline personality disorder. https://www.furaffinity.net/user/laibydesign https://www.patreon.com/overlaiagain https://www.paypal.com/biz/profile/teamlai

the problem is that no matter how well i do, how much i change, how much i fix, the people i loved will stay gone - so it doesn't matter. my effort. it doesn't matter. i'm still in the empty room. no matter how hard i fight. they're gone.

I actually don't have much to do and don't like my days off, but my body can't seem to handle sustained labor either. So I'm trapped between doing more than I can handle, or doing nothing and being bored.

To me, the world always feels like it's ending. It's hard to turn it off. I employ therapy and pills for it daily. I still feel as though I am alone, falling apart, barely making it through a given day.

I don't know what to do. I already expended every available research to get here. And now I'm being charged more than promised and people are eating my food.