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@canary-cannery.bsky.social
Art Account: @canarycandy.bsky.social I post my thoughts, talk about my research/academics, and ponder on my interests here. May be 18+. Posts may be frequent(ly deleted) depending on my mood. Discord: canarycannery
I haven't been doing very well on Physics GRE practice, and I feel like it's weighed against me because a lot of it runs on swift recognition and recall for trick questions which, having taken exclusively grad classes, I'm not used to. Not that it's unfair, but it's something I never trained for.
I don't talk enough about how discovering furries online became my biggest money sink and the single most life-changing thing that has ever happened to me.
I feel like a total dork listening to video game OSTs sometimes (in principle, I think video game music is beautiful, but I'm a person with a lot of shame), but The Last Guardian's soundtrack sometimes does the trick for my stress better than therapy. I can feel my gray hairs retrieve their color.
After two months of back-and-forth and the testing organization questioning my diagnosis in a dehumanizing charade, I finally received testing accommodations.
I tried THC drinks for the first time a couple days ago, and it's unbelievable how much they did for my mood.
I think an underrated defining piece of tech during my youth was the BlackBerry. I have a weird attachment to phones with physical keyboards.
If I were liberated—cringe and free—I’d paste song lyrics all over my Discord profile.
I think I keep overexerting myself in everything I do—or I have a low threshold for work. Either option sucks.
Made some grass you can trample. I don't know if I did it correctly, but after a lot of documentation and tutorials I wrote a small shader that would randomize the sway of the grass texture. Then, I put the scene in a TileMapLayer and duplicated. I don't know how to use MultiMeshInstance2D.
I was only on my first day of learning any sort of game development, but it made me feel alive. Did I choose the wrong pursuit?
Literally started like yesterday—don't laugh. I learned how to do a few movement things, added an NPC with random movement, and implemented a working dialog system with chat area detection. Basic stuff, but it was more of a pain in the ass than I expected. Also learned pixel art for the first time!
At the same time with learning GDScript, I think I need to get back into learning frame-by-frame animation. I went on a roll this summer doing some of the key exercises.
Recently started watching Link Click with my partner. The pacing in the first season so far throws me off sometimes, but it’s pretty devastating.
I really need to get back to finishing up FFIV. Was awestruck with every part of it.
I'm quite excited for my research in the coming half-year. This summer, I made a few discoveries that require investigating. In particular, I enumerated a number of novel theories and analyzed their behavior when you adjust their energy/length scale, which we call the renormalization group. 1/7
Never introduced myself. I'm can. Most people who knew/know me knew/know me as an artist online. Eventually, somehow, I became the "physics fella" in my circles. Now, I'm back to being an "art fella". I mostly do quantum field theory/string theory with a focus on non-perturbative aspects of both.
I think the stress of graduate applications—especially in high-energy theory, which is especially competitive—has been making me ponder a lot on what my goals in life are. I love what I do in quantum field theory. I believe in it. I also recognize just how grueling everything surrounding it is. 1/N
