She/Purr
@catshapedblob.bsky.social
Born in 97. Satanist. Trans woman. Therian? “If you love a flower, don’t pick it up. Because if you pick it up it dies and it ceases to be what you love. So if you love a flower, let it be. Love is not about possession. Love is about appreciation"
right when i think I'm ready for change life tightens the noose on me
do i even actually love my partners? have i ever even felt love to begin with? have i been lying to everyone including myself? am i even a person?
do i even *know* any of the people that i'm involved with? i cant even remember birthdays i remember vague details about things theyve been through or told me about but it feels like i just know them by vibes and not any identifiable traits
and now that enough time has passed with these people that ive known, i cant hide my flaws anymore they see me for who i am better than i saw myself
i thought i had built myself into a better, stronger person but i'm still the same scared little girl that cant say no im still the same weak confused unstable wretch i always was i never got better i just learned to hide my flaws
can i even change? how do i even fix something like myself? can i ever be worthy in my own eyes?
have i ever really been liked by anyone? or have they just been putting up with me because im nice sometimes?
how much of my bullshit have people been quietly tolerating
the light is going out i dont know if i can keep it on I dont know if i want to
ok non-tech ppl might be hearing some scary things about "critical vulnerabilities" involving certificates. the main thing you need to know, without getting down in the weeds about it, is that the fourth seal is broken. lo, a rider approacheth upon a pale steed, and his name is Death
I dont know if I have enough gold to melt into all my cracks and fractures anymore
