💜Choco mini! 💜

@choco-mini.bsky.social

28 earth years 5'4 (nb,They/any) Cw 88 l b s gw 85 l b s Edbsky, venting, Local dramatic asshole. Choco is currently || ?‽?‽?¿¿ Sad hours: off / off / on? ⬆️ Alt: @badgermini.bsky.social MDNI

(earlier) A huge redheaded woodpecker showed up to check out the nectar- big friend WAS actually looking at it with envy because they DO try to get into hummingbird feeders (I whistled at birdy until it flew off tho, I wasn't sure at the timr) BUD!! The feeder is smaller than you are!!

Always weird to read things you don't remember writing. Happens more and more frequently. Feels like to have permission to use my own brain. Choco is maybe actually a collection of wayward spirits >•< guess that's why we can't keep anything straight or get things done

Okok last one and then I will just start writing them down to avoid spamming the feed. Yesterday We got talking and he goes "I wish you didn't /have/ to be 90#" and I went 👀... 👁️ 👄 👁️ Cuz I forgot I'm supposed to not be under 90 rn... I'm such a shit I can't believe he trusted me I feel bad :((

I've noticed Monday is really hard and can basically make or break the rest of the week.. so all I have to do is keep checking to make sure sad hours are staying off and try to have a productive day where I don't think about anything too much. I believe in me! 💜

WHEN I *ahem* , sorry for yelling, ᵂʰᵉⁿ ᴵ ˢᵃʸ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᵇᵃˡᵃⁿᶜᵉ ᶦˢ ᵃᶜᵗᵘᵃˡˡʸ ᵗʰᵉ ʷᵒʳˢᵗ ᵗʰᶦⁿᵍ ᵃⁿʸᵒⁿᵉ ᶜᵒᵘˡᵈ ᵉᵛᵉʳ ʷᶦˢʰ ᶠᵒʳ ᵗʰᶦˢ ᶦˢ ʷʰᵃᵗ ᴵ ᵐᵉᵃⁿ; ᵗᵒᵈᵃʸ ᶦⁿ ᵗʰᶦˢ ³⁶ ᵖᵃʳᵗ ᵉˢˢᵃʸ ᴵ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ᵗᵒ ᵉˣᵖˡᵃᶦⁿ ʰᵒʷ ᵉᵛᵉʳʸ ᵍᵒᵒᵈ ᵗʰᶦⁿᵍ ʰᵃˢ ᵗᵒ ᵇᵉ ᵇᵃˡᵃⁿᶜᵉᵈ ᵒᵘᵗ ᵇʸ ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗʰᶦⁿᵍ ᵇᵃᵈ ⁿᵒ ᵐᵃᵗᵗᵉʳ ʰᵒʷ ᵇᶦᵍ ᵒʳ ˢᵐᵃˡˡ, ᵃⁿᵈ ᵐᵃʸᵇᵉ...

Writng a char who is more visually impaired than me, but also based on my experiences with vision loss (I'm finally slowing down on the going blind thing! Losing less every year woo 🎉) Anyways it's making me a lot more appreciative of my -7.50 eyes (Pls stay where you belong Mr post)

I drew f4nârt of one of the hümingb!rds (soreey for all the censors I'm being very careful with my g4rdén related posts for a bit) but idk if I should put it on here or on my actual 4rt account since I don't even talk about them there. Wuhh would anyone even wanna see? 🫣

I have this feeling like when this energy runs out it's going to be soooo so bad. I have to keep the energy. I can't start crazy babbling for ,, genuinely was it two years?? Maybe just one year? Long ass time. What even... was that?The past few days I've been awake like I'm actually conscious.

Theres two humingb!rds that visit regularly , I think one of them is a baby (soo tiny) so I've been calling that one bibi and the bigger one lady and I read that the dad probly already flew home to get their winter nest ready it's so cool they're going 3000 miles away and they all find each other

Why is this man lecturing me about population decline wtffff nooo I don't KNOW YOUUU?!??? All cuz I mention I'm the oldest of 7 and I think that's irresponsible parenting because we ALL turned out fucked Like how do you have a 0/7 record frfr??

I put a bird feeder, I find out different birds like different things. So I put out more different feeders. Then I plant nectar plants. Then they don't bloom so I set up a hummingbird feeder. Then the bees find it. So I put out a bee oasis. So, I'm basically benevolent overlord of the garden

[vent??but optimism?] What if I never turn sad hours back on ?? if I just took away the "on" 😂 can't turn sad hours on, sorry it's only off/off forever how would my brain know? I'm already tricking it??? I can just be like "the manager said it needs to stay off"?? I'm so close to winning yall

💜💜 Only posting about this so I can start processing it because it still feels not real and shocking. 💜💜 Longpost probably, so random picture with a wall of text in the alt. P. S. Alt txt is janky af when you put a lot of words into it. Ignore the typos

Surely soon we will have to move. Probably closer to a city which makes me sad. We probably won't be able to keep anything from the garden, even our 4 year old blueberry plant Which should start making fruit really soon, so it would break my heart to care for it this long only to never see it get flowers. We nursed it to health from a mold infestation after we rescued it for free from a garden center. Thats not all, this was the first year our strawberry patch made berries. We spent weeks filling up two huge new garden areas. We finally grew beans. We have so many unique birds and bugs specifically because of the garden. But... My partner needs to be in proximity to a doctor, he's been having a lot of problems lately and it scares the shit out of me. The dogs deserve more space inside the house, since they can't be outside unsupervised (thanks a lot irresponsible neighbors who refuse to control their own dogs) and we cant afford a fence (not to mention the poa doesnt allow fences so it would just be a new reason forthem to call the cops on us). Even if it wasn't that, with me not being able to drive, I leave the house maybe once every 3-5 months. Everything could be so much easier in a city with more than 400 people living in it. But I'm terrified of living in a city. We could both get access to the help we both need. But there will probably be no garden or hummingbirds. My partner could get a better paying job, I could even possibly get a job. But everything will be more expensive. I'm scared to leave our home. I thought this would be it. This was supposed to be my fairy garden. I feel like everything is telling me no.

(⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠) hii welcome! (⁠。⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧ Choco/Badger, 28 years old! Non-binary (They/any) ⭐ Vent acct! Mentions sh and ed stuff pls stay safe if those trigger you 💜💜 Cw: 89lb gw:<85 Art alt (check bio!) I post about my garden a lot! Mentally ill asf 💜 don't take anything I say seriously!!!

Work on improving skills so I can say I'm good at something : 🙅🏾 Spend two hours making a sh!p grid for my ocs : 🏃🏾 Yuhh, but I also watched out my window and got to see a bunch of hummingbirds, soits all good