windows xp is the windows 11 of windows 2000 when u think about it

kindergarten class when theyre teaching numbers and the entire class erupts with laughter while the teacher counts and gets to the cursed numerals

that anhedonia nap messed everything up im still completely misaligned

genuinely i feel really fucked up rn and have for a few days now

might start editing the video but i got stuff i need to do first that i was supposed to do several days ago but didnt because uhh rotting + impulsively recording minecraft for 3 hours oh will normalize the audio levels in the (otherwise) unedited upload i think that would be good i record my mic low

the ender dragon is just not an interesting boss fight im sorry why ive never bothered before

to elaborate: - old ender dragon (before the perching phase was added) - only bringing in a stone pick (to deal with the towers, not allowed to use on the dragon) - no armor - no food - no potions - no weapons - only allowed to damage the dragon with fists after towers (only possible when it lunges)

if you die in the game, you die in the game

its like 3 hours and mostly uninteresting (lotta just waiting for the dragon to lunge) but theres gold in there i tried this same thing in a past life but couldnt actually do it and tbh the video doesnt really hold up

killed the pre-1.9 ender dragon with my bare hands (on recording, video whenever i edit it) ama

shit sucks we're so tired and dead today

had a very early anhedonia nothing feels like anything nap stayed up all night have only slept intermittently blehhhh we wanted to get stuff done today too :(

anhedonia moments

new outfit + variant i feel kinda just dead right now relevant to the cosplay at least because lain ps1 made me feel dead for a while after i finished it for the first time and the second time anime lain was already very similar to me and hell i even watched it first at her age but god ps1 lain.....

WAIT number stations depend on the sender and recipient knowing the encoding scheme but nobody else knowing it (and of course being able to be received by anyone) YOU KNOW THE RULES AND SO DO I

i know webdriver torso was just an automated stress test channel but it WOULD actually be a very good model for a digital numbers station tbh the beeps and dimensions of the rectangles encoding information somehow should make that like a webdriver video with a hidden message in it

webdriver torso vtuber avatar the funny rectangles move synched to voice and of course thered be the paris and astley buttons too

but yeah ive used vpc before with win98se on my 400mhz g3 before and it runs that fine so curious how well my much faster g4 will do it

mac os 9 window move sound

oh also the increasingly ipadified ui DOES suck 100% if i had it my way itd still be platinum themed like that one dev preview with the ported os 9 finder before they made it SUCK with the sounds of course

thank you for coming to my ted talk

but zomg os x sucks!!! you gotta use os 9!!! os x isnt a REAL mac os!!! yes it isnt but like os x is not a bad os no matter how you slice it ESPECIALLY the powerpc versions that the os 9 only types are talking about modern os x theres an argument to be made does suck but i think people make it wrong

everythings faster on os 9 because os 9 is barely an os meanwhile os x has proper multitasking, protected memory, an actual kernel, like os x is a full os its not really comparable classic mac os was a hacked together thing for one underpowered machine from the 80s os x is goddamn bsd

im planning on comparing this jit build of dosbox i found to vpc running dos and also trying win98se and winxp and probably linux too and probably 9front im gonna be trying a lot of operating systems on it okay

the patient needs powerpc to live

thinking about powerpc i have the distinctive urge to install virtual pc for mac today we'll see if i get some time to do it on recording because idk i do wanna record it then youll eventually see it but the monster tiger imaging/install video is still not finished

idk all thsi really hit me when i like became a vtuber myself and then also the playing with dolls connection hit me today when i was making all those outfits for my model and going like wait im basically just dressing up and playing with a doll

a puppeteers job is to bring life to an inanimate object much the same my job is to bring life to my on its own inanimate model my puppet is merely a digital one kermit the frog would 100% qualify as a vtuber if he wasnt a physical puppet if he was a digital one he would 100% otherwise qualify

vtubing is ultimately a subset of puppetry just as 3d character art and animation in general is a subset of playing with dolls the difference between a doll and a puppet is ultimately just the spark of life provided by the puppeteer

the deus ex endings all feel very thematic and fit well i just wish they branched off earlier than the final section of the final area wouldve also been fun to throw on an evil/fascist ending where you side with page and mj12 tbh though like i get why that doesnt exist narratively