Going back to the master today. No writer has ever understood it like he does.

I've been reading Hyperion recently. I'm about halfway through right now and while it definitely has issues, it's really reminded me why I loved big sci-fi novels. The way it keeps throwing out these big abstract ideas and weird setting details out there is so captivating to me.

Picked up some new books today while I was out. Never read any Simmons or Genet but I remember reading one of the Moderan stories in Dangerous Visions and it made a huge impression on me, very cool to see the stories all collected again.

How me and my friends pull up to the club.

If you're wondering how trans healthcare is doing in the UK my doctor sent me an email explaining why he won't refer me for surgery where he included an AI generated description of what gender dysphoria is.

Managed to pick up some new books recently! Really looking forward to diving into them. I've never actually actually read much Danielewski but I got tempted into picking up Tom's Crossing on a whim. (Pynchon of course is an old favourite).

I started listening to Death Grips and instantly realised I've just become a more fundamentally annoying kind of person.

I watched Zhang Yimou's Curse of the Golden Flower this evening which I've been meaning to watch for a bout 13 years. I regret not tracking it down much sooner, what a beautiful, brutal movie. An instant favourite. There's a lot to treasure here but Gong Li's costuming is burned into my soul.

Catching up with the reviews for One Battle After Another and it's a great filter to just ignore any critic who starts by talking about a film's budget and the studios finances at the beginning of the review.

Fear & Hunger's premise of "What if Griffith was rescued and then took on the God Hand?" Is incredibly hackish but the game makes it work by giving us the answer "Everyone would die in the most awful ways imaginable."

Playing through Fear & Hunger and this game feels like the most accurate version of how a traditional; "Dungeon Crawl" would go in that you just have you limbs cut off and die from tetanus while crawling away from maniacally laughing head of an evil wizard. 10/10 game so far.

Staying strong in my belief that England is a cursed land where nothing good can ever grow.

I always pictured Ligotti's stories taking place in a some industrial slump town made of stained concrete and rusted iron. Somewhere that resembled the decaying factory towns I grew up near. But looking at actual photos of Detroit all I see is endless American suburbia which looks more inhuman.

I managed to see Weapons just before it left the cinema here. I know I'm late to the party but I really enjoyed it. It managed to thread the needle between being suspenseful and then very funny at times. I loved the shifting perspectives following various threads to a really fun climax.

I don't think it's a good sign for the future of humanity that if I open the app store on my phone half of the top recommended apps are AI digital girlfriends.

I managed to get my hands on this! I'm very excited to read it, one of the few Thomas Ligotti books I haven't read yet.

Waking up and finding out that the government has quite casually removed all trans people's rights is painful enough. But having to watch as all the most rancid bigots on either side of the Atlantic celebrate the pain and misery they've caused is unbearable.

I spent over ten hours travelling yesterday to see a doctor so that he could tell me that if I get my testicles removed I will be unable to have children. (This is the second time I've had to travel to see a doctor and be told this) I had to restrain myself from replying by just reciting Kafka.

I'm genuinely a bit surprised at how the "romantasy" genre seems to have taken over fantasy lit but there's been almost no effort to court that audience from Hollywood or the games industry. I feel sure that whoever makes a gacha/dating sim about collecting a harem of fairy boys would outsell CoD.

I got to see The People's Joker in cinema last night, which was pretty neat. Probably the only Joker movie I'll ever watch and while it wasn't really my kind of film I did have fun seeing it with the dolls.

This just looks like a group of background characters from Xavier Renegade Angel.

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This is Meta’s brand new ad for Horizon Worlds. Not sure how I’m supposed to feel about it.

I'm used to great works of art having awful fanbases but there's something special in the way the average Berserk fan fails to appreciate the actual manga.

My obsession with Nietzsche has led me to start reading up on the Greek worship of Dionysos. Which is incredibly frustrating as a trans person because Dionysos was frequently depicted as an androgynous cross dresser but this aspect seems to be of no interest to the academics who write about him.

Hadn't really paid attention to Ethel Cain but dropping a video titled "My Favourite Types of Gay Porn" followed by an album of depressing drone music is enough to make me a diehard fan.

Every time I tell someone from my gender clinic I wish I looked more feminine they get surprised and confused. They turn into Socrates and start going "Well what does 'looking like a woman' even mean?" like it's not their fucking job to help people transition.

It's hard to overstate how much David Lynch's films mean to me. Some of my happiest memories as a teen are being introduced to his works by a boy I had a crush on. And later taking a girl who had a crush on me to see Wild at Heart in the cinema. Farewell to one of the great artists of our times.

Currently working my way through Alan and Steve Moore's Moon and Serpent Bumper Book of Magic. It's an absolutely beautiful book and I'm enjoying it a lot even if I find myself unconvinced by this kind of syncretic esotericism.

When I was a teenager I was a very STEM brained child. I wanted to learn as much hard science as possible and being vaguely contemptuous of the humanities. As an adult though my biggest regret in education is not spending more time learning Ancient Greek and studying Art History.

Got a nice new dress!

Seeing Nosferatu on a big screen was one of the best cinema experience I've had in a long time. The movie is so powerful that it made me genuinely scared, it was like watching horror films as a child. I had my hand on my mouth so I wouldn't scream. Five stars.