Dark Spawn Wolf

@darkspawnwolf.bsky.social

🏳️‍🌈 he/him /PreMed student/ emotional pin cushion/ amateur artist/ TF enthusiast/ LV 33/ suit by Mixedcandy

Well I’m back in Campus. I’m only take two classes this semester but they’re a work load. Might quit/leave my current job at some point if it gets to overwhelming. I’m not giving in this time. I’ve given up to much already to wait another year to get these classes done.

I know I’ve been stressing about nursing & getting into the medical field, but I’m also going to be gambling a lot on my Art & passion soon. I haven’t been kind to my art or myself & I want to feel good about what I do. I want to share the horrors & serenities I’ve experienced & dream about.

Being anti-AI isn't enough. You should be pro-art, pro-artist, pro-writer, pro-worker. Don't expend all your energy tearing people down. Spend it lifting people up instead. Make their voices so loud, their art so visible, it drowns out the slop.

I think the next step for my diet is to cut sugar. -My current calorie count is between ~800-1400 a day depending if I’m fasting (mostly juices). -I’ve completely cut sodas, energy drinks, & candies at this point. - currently peanut butter & apple juice “pressed” are my biggest sugar sources.

At the moment the only thing killing my self confidence is looking at a mirror. I’ve made a good amount of progress but, I don’t think I’ve ever respected myself. The next step from my current fasting & dieting is getting back into a WO routine & sticking with it No matter how much I hate myself.

Time to stream! It's gonna be my 1.5K Twitch Follower celebration stream with art raffles throughout the day! :D I'll mix in some playing games, watching videos, and other general chit chat throughout, but the focus today is on making fun art for all of you! twitch.tv/jdpuppy - come by, say hi!

JDPuppy - Twitch

This doggo is a gamer that enjoys puzzles, roguelikes, community games, and a bunch of other types! And I am a cartoon artist at times, too!

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Health wise I’m finally almost off caffeine. I still need to commit myself to fitness. I’m still overcome mental scares of past injuries & self rejection; but I’m finding it easier to move slowly back into a routine as I accept myself more. It’s frustrating, but it’s progress.

I’m now 2 months clean of Energy drinks & 1 month clean of alcohol. It’s a start that I’m committed too. Even if I can tolerate the alcohol, I have something more I’m invested in: “Myself”. I’m not willing to sacrifice my progress. I know what I want & what I am.

As I continue to add bits to my main series I’ve been writing the more I’m pulled to wanting to draw it instead. From complex monsters to integrated combat scenes; it’s become difficult to describe with just words while keeping a steady flow. Definitely considering an Art tutor for guidance soon.

I’m beginning to stress about my upcoming Classes (Anatomy & Microbiology) for the Fall semester. I only have 4 more classes before I attempt to transfer into a Nursing program. -the programs here are extremely competitive & I have been struggling to master theses subjects.

You know, despite ”X” being what it was, I have to give it to to them for their “Shared *like feature” . apparently close mutuals came to the conclusion of my queerness before I did. Filtering out supporting/nonsupporting friends😅 Was a bit embarrassing finding out, luckily I’m not the weirdest 😭

Currently on working Chapter 5 of my light novel. (Soft draft). This has been an exciting & educatal warm up for future projects I’ve been wanting to work on. -My guess is I’m ~40% done writing the first draft. The Outline is done, still need to edit & clean up content. Maybe name changes.

Dark Spawn Wolf@darkspawnwolf.bsky.social · last mo.

Currently on a writing Fix. I’ve began written a light young-fantasy novel with lgbtq+ focus. This is as much as a warm up for writing for me as a coming out story. Already about 40 pages in. I don’t know if I will ever publish it, but it has been fun writing it.

As I explore my own sexuality the more I realize my fears are driven from a lack of self acceptance & the thought of losing of control of myself. But the more I begin to accept myself & the changes, the less afraid I become.

Currently on a writing Fix. I’ve began written a light young-fantasy novel with lgbtq+ focus. This is as much as a warm up for writing for me as a coming out story. Already about 40 pages in. I don’t know if I will ever publish it, but it has been fun writing it.