He just doesn't listen, man. The despair and loss is just, fucking hell bro.

My hands won't stop shaking either. Just let it end bro, please.

Crying at work bro. I'm so glad I work alone.

Never again. It's happened too many times.

I feel like literal corpse man. It hurts so much.

This might have ruined being a furry for me.

It hurts so much. It feels like I've been shot. (Metaphorically) Fuck man. Fuck. Just, fuck.

Even though I had issues with him, I never gave up on him. And I'd still take him back after all of this. I'm sorry.

No.

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Fuck...

Things were improving, I was committed to it. Things in life were gonna get less stressful come next month. All these things that made me so abrasive were gonna lighten up and I was gonna be able to move back to the better me that's been buried under all of the crap from the last 8 months

I miss being his big fox

I don't know anymore man. I really don't. I want to try to fix things. Months from now, a year from now. I want to try to reconcile when we're not so beaten down by life. I have such a strong bound with him. I felt accepted and understood. I felt like I didn't have to constantly mask. I felt whole.

I'm trying so hard not to sob at work. I'm shaking, I feel ill, and I feel so hollow and so empty

I love him man 😭 He's all I think about...

We used to VC at work too, so I could make it through the shift. And now it's just quiet...

Part of me hopes (probably in vain) that we just need a break. We're both so stressed out. Work has been sucking my soul out since Feburary. I haven't had a healthy sleep schedule since then either and I think we just spent too much together while we were so worn out.

Trying to not fall apart at work. I'm so lost in a sea of emotions. I still can't believe I fumbled him. I'd give and do anything to repair it

Fuck. I can't sleep. I still feel like I've been punched in the gut. </3

I wish I was better sooner. I love him

I was so hung up over what few things were missing, I didn't appreciate what I had.

Korthis ⸸@demonsune.bsky.social · 3d ago

I fumbled him. I fumbled the best person to ever walk into my life.

I fumbled him. I fumbled the best person to ever walk into my life.

I weep man. I weep so much

Actually landed up with some sort of mutism from all of this. There's just people I can't speak too and environments I can't speak in. It's just bizarre. But I'm still a mess so I don't know man.

God, I'm gonna be physically ill

God I'm so alone and lonely im high as shit and so desperately struggling with yhe will to live. I genuinely don't what to do. Every sevond is agony

💔

The Backrooms but it's just the inside of car dealerships.

Some of the Star Trek TNG episodes feel like rejected Twilight Zone plots.