Came home to find another mill moth. Almost 72h without seeing any. And there was one again. Next one I see is getting Jack Torrance treatment.
Jeske
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I'm not entirely comfortable with my physique, but whenever I join life drawing sessions I catch myself thinking of how awesome it must be to model for a drawing class
Checking the Rotterdam Marathon website to see if it's already possible to sign up. It's a kind of raffle so singing up doesn't even mean you can participate. I want to try to get a ticket, but it's a wild guess
When my guitar teacher randomly sends me a photo I just KNOW it is a hurdy gurdy Thank you sir for always supporting my hurdy gurdy passion while you've been trying to teach me guitar for over a decade and not feeling betrayed about that
Wondering what kind of runner I'd be if I'd follow proper training. With a coach and all that stuff. There's a athletics club close to wear I live but their running training schedules don't match with my work schedule and that sucks
Playing with this new paint once again makes me daydream about collabing with art supply brands I love, or being sponsored. But I don't put myself out there enough to get noticed. And i am too stubborn to do that anyway
Usually not really into supplements and shit, but adding electrolytes to my water after an insanely hot run and LOTS of sweating does make me feel better
I'm shocked every time I am reminded of the fact Robert Pattinson is actually British.
I dreamed we went for a long walk to talk things out. Didnt work out ag all, only caused more frustration. Woke up stressed af. Pathetic.
Sitting down with my sketchbook for the first time in ages. Cat says no.
I feel protective over my friend, want to make sure she gets home safely. But who is protective over me? Who wants me to get home safely after a long day away?
Ludwig Göransson may have full control over the music played at my funeral.
Maybe what I want is just to chill with someone, no intentions, except for letting my heart out. A lot of my thoughts and feelings are written out here, but they aren't spoken out loud. Shared with someone.
Time for Friday Evening Sadness: the emotions and anxiety from a year ago are popping up again, wanting to be released. Some part of me still hasn't found the closure it thinks it needs to let go completely. I still have questions that will never be answered. And it's ok, I need to learn that
hate to admit it but sometimes a uniform just looks... hot... imo
Got pissed bc my meds arent doing their work today. In incredibly slow, constantly distracted, takes me over 2h to finisb a 30 minute task Realized I forgot to take meds today
It's a pity that packing and unpacking camping gear takes up so much time and space. I'm already excited for the next camping trip
After 2 English novels it was time for something Dutch. Non-fiction. About why men don't talk, why that's a problem and how it could be resolved.
Been writing daily reports abt my trip on Polarsteps and it made me realize that I actually really like writing
I wonder if I'm missed and talked about at the festival, but I kinda suspect (expect) by absence goes unnoticed and nobody cares.
Realized a few days ago how fucked up last years festival situation actually was. The tent I slept in was supposed to be a safe soace, but I was afraid to go there during the day. Even if I needed some time off or grab some personal stuff. All my belongings were there and I felt unsafe going there.
I want to own a lil house here so I can be here more often and run through the hills. Also thinking of getting a mountainbike so I can switch running & biking for a more balanced training schedule. Should be more gentle on the muscles and joints.