Patience is not my strongest trait... but I'm confident that everything is on the right track. I'm surrounded by people who wo love me and keep my head above the water. The road is long, emotional and full of stones, but the sun is rising.
Ryudar 🏳️⚧️
@ryudar.bsky.social
Lv. 41 🇩🇪 🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️ | She/Her | HRT Jan 26| Wolf or Tigon (Tiger-Lion)| Offenburg (GER), married to Ponchtiger❤| WH40k| VRChat | WoW 18+ -- No minors! --
8 months HRT Self doubt about how I look is still high, but...maybe someday I'll truely be happy about that.
More photos from the EF30 fursuit parade. @adawolf.bsky.social and @dragonvannin.bsky.social @ryudar.bsky.social and Ponch @talos99.bsky.social #furry #fursuit #eurofurence
EF30 was a blast <3 Had a depressive phase (as always), but overall great experience. Aaaand it was my first time in girl mode outside of my home walls. I got more confidence in myself and I'm sure I'll think less about what other people see when they look at me from now on.
Almost 7 months of HRT and looking in the mirror is confusing asf. Front: Girl! Slightly Left: Awww....don't like it Tilt the head: Yay! Turn it right: Meh...
It is time! The harness is done! ✨ 👕 Fits most Blendshapes and (standard) clothes 🫳 Interactable front and backstraps 🎶 Audio Link and 2 AL Spectrum variants ⚙️ Highly customizable through in-game menu 🏳️🌈 Comes with a selection of pride flag textures 🛒 jinxxy.com/Riggedy/Harn...
Without saying your age, what's your favorite movie that came out when you were 18?
Without saying your age, what's your favorite movie that came out when you were 18?
6 month HRT Update :3 - Skin is reaaally soft now - Boobies keep growing (very slowly), yay! - Depression rollercoaster continues ( one day I'm ugly, the other I really like the progress) - Finding female clothes for my body feels like fighting a Dark Souls Boss you've tried for the 30th time
The furry fandom is supposed to be a safe space for people of all genders, races, and sexualities. If you are someone who has a problem with that, fix your heart or GTFO
Thinking about that I might finally make this as stickers :> TERFs can just fuck off 😌👌 #TransRightsAreHumanRights
Reaching 6 Months of HRT soon, but I'm stuck in a heavy frustration. I'm not satisfied with myself... at all.
Happy #FursuitFriday in my 🦊 #Kitavos suit ✂️ #yurei_kitsune - x.com/yurei_kitsune 🐺 @ryudar.bsky.social ✂️ #DrakonicKnight 📸 @skippwolf.bsky.social 📅 06.09.2023 🏢 #CCH 🌆 #Hamburg 🇩🇪 🎉 27. #Eurofurence 🎩 @eurofurence.org #EF #EF2023 #EF27 #Fursuit #Furry #Berk Follow my Berk-News (TG) t.me/Berk_News
Looks like the city approved my two chosen names <3. I can legally change my name and gender entry in October. I was worried that my 2nd Name (yeah in Germany when you have two names, you also need to change both and choose a 2nd) would cause problems, bit I guess "Ryu" is okay for them :D
I put up some ✨shnazzy✨ glasses on Jinxxy to buy for the Winterpaw Feline base avatar! 🏞️ Refractive and Reflective (Wow!) ⚙️ Optimized for PC and Quest users 🫳 Very much grabbable 🎵 Audio Link and LTCGI Support 🎨 Comes with an in-game adjustable colorized lens version 🛒 jinxxy.com/Riggedy/Glas...
I'm getting the hang of using my airbrush. I used mostly contrast paints with it, really wanted to give that murder chicken some really bright colors. :) #Warhammer40k #daemonprinceoftzeentch
The more clothes I try, the more I realize that transitioning takes time and that my impatience is making my life harder. I'm only 4,5 months in and I'm expecting waaaay too much. I should be happy about how far I've come, but that's not going to happen until I look in the mirror and say "That's me"
I'm "a little overwhelmed" with how much more difficult it is to find women's clothes that fit me. The size charts are so confusing...
I'm sad that I can't watch another episode of Dorohedoro today :( I love this show soooo much!
4 months HRT progress: - more direct dysphoria than ever before ...I'm impatient :( - Estradiol was too low (47...pf 100-200), I'm now getting 3x Gel pumps a day and in a few weeks 4. - Boobies are forming nicely (much quicker than expected) Impatience's my biggest enemy.
My excitement is over the moon 8D Pleeeease give us a Cadian Guard Armor and a Lasgun! #Helldivers I'm pretty sure there'll be an Astartes themed heavy armor and a Bolter :3