Random pins and things from PAX East.

Can I just be done?

My drive home from AqF was definitely blurry because of the tears. I wish it was just from PCD, because then I would know it will get better soon. But I know it’s because I spent most of the con pushing down my sadness about the loss of a dear friend. Tomorrow is going to be so hard. 😔

I would do anything for love, but bacon grease while shirtless? I won’t do that. Happy Mother’s Day to my wife and all other Moms!

I should probably post when I’m in a good mood too, so my page isn’t just sad sack shiny BS. lol Overall, I’m doing well. And I should do a better job remembering that.

What’s the opposite of a self-help book? Is it a “self-destruct book”? Is there a market for such a thing, or is everyone else already as good at it as I am?

The bittersweet realization that you’re a generally happy person because your phone doesn’t unlock when you’re crying.

Removing myself from situations hurts others. Goodness, if I haven’t heard a better argument for never getting into situations in the first place. I think I would like to silently sit in a box until it’s time for my final removal. Time for a step back from all of this to refocus.

Imagine you are being summoned. What gif represents that?

a fox with a fork and knife sticking its head out of a manhole cover

Alt: a fox sticking its head out of a manhole cover after propping it up with a fork

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Allikuja⁷ 💜 they/he@allikuja.bsky.social · last yr.

Imagine you are being summoned. What gif represents that?

The transmutation of emotions is a harsh alchemy.

I’m convinced there is no dignified way to eat Taco Bell. But on my knees in the living room, head tilted back, eyes watering and sweaty, choking on a too big bite of burrito while sauce runs down my chin? Probably the most undignified. I hope this doesn’t awaken anything in me.

Part of me knows that I shouldn’t house an entire package of Girl Scout cookies as my “lunch” …..but that part of me is obviously not in charge of my actions today!!

When I leave for five days for @fursquared.com and I come back to all the toilet paper rolls being on backwards. It’s utter lawlessness when I’m away!

The PCD only really hits after I take the “soon” out of my display name

When you check in on the homefront re: Microsoft Rewards points progress while you’re away, and you have to share some of your present excitement. Great to finally meet you @suedeer.bsky.social. Let me know if you need board game recommendations! 🎲 🦊

You know that feeling of crazy productivity experienced with a looming deadline? How do I do that without procrastinating until the last minute? Because my brain chemicals are doing a revenge on me now.

I really wanna do a friend art remix again ^^ this is so memorable ❤️ giving this adorable traditional art some solid lines & color for more life, keeping the meaning of such a sweet gesture 🙌 pls, more of this! No money was exchanged, was simply a lil gift between friends. T🎨: @zorvisfox.bsky.social

Today I had to poop after I got out of the shower. I’m going back to bed because my day is obviously ruined.

Dear Me from 24 hours ago… Just shut up!

After years of learning about my ADHD brain, I know that focusing on one thing at a time is the best way for it to be successful. …but I’m also mad at it right now, so I’m gonna punish it by trying to do five things at once.

So far, it has been a great year. I feel like 2025 will be a very fun, exciting year personally, and if it isn’t, at least I’ll have this post to look back on and laugh.

Improve a movie with “fuck” Mr. Magorium’s Fuck Emporium

Allikuja⁷ 💜 they/he@allikuja.bsky.social · 2y ago

Improve a movie with “fuck” Mystery Fuck

Is it too much to ask these days for a Thursday to not completely derail my self-confidence in my motivations & intentions? Maybe the common theme here is that people are finally trying to tell me how shitty I am and how I am a self-involved user, and, because of how hard I try not to be, it hurts.

“I am a slut onion. The more layers you peel, the sluttier I look. So if I hit slut critical mass for someone, I’d stop undressing.” - Real thing I have said in conversation

I am so incredibly lucky and happy to live a life surrounded by the love of great people. I will never stop appreciating the billion unique ways that my family and my friends show me they care. 💙

Murphy’s Law of Bedtime: If any toys are left out after the baby goes down, you will step on the one with the loudest possible sound. This little blue shit does its loud ass call twice per incident. #parenting #bedtime

This weekend has been one of the greats. Got to spend chill time with the family, get the house clean, have friends over to play board games and watch movies, get some cuddle time in both with friends and my wife, (mumbles) fulfill my husbandly duties. Amazing time with people I care deeply about.

After being down for the count the past week and a half, it’s nice to get a good sweaty exercise in. Making the commitment to come back stronger, just to spite the germs. Now a shower and personal hair maintenance. It’s a #selfcare day. Gotta get back to feelin good about myself.

Bodies shouldn’t be allowed to trick you like this. They shouldn’t be allowed to say “oh yeah, you’re totally fine and you can do whatever you want again” if they’re going to betray you again and make you wake up multiple times a night to make you sit on the toilet. God this sucks. #sick

That super irresponsible urge to ditch all my responsibilities for the rest of the weekend and drive the 3ish hours to the place where my soul can be healed in a sea of fluffy hugs and good friends. I hope everyone at #MFF2024 is having a great time!