Squishy

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I wanna establish some lore that the robot sona i'm using now is a robot with a soul, I just like to think my old ghost sona is inhabiting it now and can leave and go back whenever they like, they just prefer to be in it to interface easier with the living world and spend thousands of years in it

I'm still thinking about this sometimes cuz I'll have friends send me things out of nowhere about me and I just keep thinking man I almost want to help people move on from things or give them a chance to just sorta get everything off their chest and maybe they'd feel better but it's not my decision

Squishy@squishysnail.bsky.social · 9mo ago

I have compassion for people who hate me for some reason, like wanting to help someone who hates me is impossible but y'know I guess I can't really stop that feeling from welling up in me it might be a personality trait

I never actually completed all the DLC especially Apotheosis in Fire Emblem Awakening so I've been replaying the game- I finally reached a point where I can tackle the normal route of it and these are the units I got decked out for it after lots of grinding and planning

I'm thinking, for a long time i've hated a lot of modern video game UI/HUDs for being super minimalistic and boring where it feels like i'm scrolling through Hulu instead of an inventory but Persona 5's UI was so highly praised and yet I rarely see any games even attempt to imitate it

I'm thinking how much I loved Act 2 in Inscryption back when I played it and how badly I wish there was like a spinoff that's just Act 2 and it's suuuuper long with more balance

I keep thinking about how much I wish nintendo would make a clamshell DS again, RAM is expensive, Storage is expensive. But the 3DS never used a lot of RAM or Storage... they could make a HD DS and just make it a little stronger with like 1 new feature and that'd be enough for me

I know it's a really common thing for people to say but I really really mean it when I say I just truly hate my life, I really wish I was born as someone else very often, even just being the average person, and having the most common occurrences in my life would be better than this

I'm too busy with studies but sometimes I do daydream about the game I want to make one day I'm still sad no one else has thought to make it, I just want that kind of experience to exist.

I like pokemon crystal clear as a romhack but I wish there was one for the unova region games that also had a really easy to use custom trainer spritesheet maker tool thingy like crystal clear does. It's so fun making your own trainer

I do wonder sometimes if id be happy in a relationship because I pretty much only really tried to be in one once but it went pretty badly. I feel like there were two other times in my life I kinda wanted to but nothing ever happened with those people in the end

My anxiety has been really hard to deal with lately for me but as much as I try to ignore it, it's still making me freeze up and have difficulty even speaking with friends at times

I used to be like, shamelessly myself but then people would kinda copy me on social media and I didn't like that but sometimes I wanna express more of the abstract side of myself more again cuz it's been so many years

Sometimes I get phantom smells because my sense of smell is so bad, It's usually not what you'd expect though they are like smell hallucinations and it'll be things like; Rubber Alcohol Latex Gasoline Mint Pickle Brine Banana Peel Leather Chlorine Pool Smell random stuff like this