Sometimes I feel almost a sense of guilt for how often my own sadness or anxiety gets in the way of me creating anything at all. Like, thinking about how much better of an artist and a creative I'd be if I wasn't so sad all the time, I'd be making things more often, and be way better than I am now
I've been working like crazy lately and not getting to play as many games as I'd like, for some reason it's hard for me to really take a break for more than a day or I feel a sense of dread
I never actually completed all the DLC especially Apotheosis in Fire Emblem Awakening so I've been replaying the game- I finally reached a point where I can tackle the normal route of it and these are the units I got decked out for it after lots of grinding and planning
I may have shared this already in the past but this song is so nice www.youtube.com/watch?v=lJI9...
Shower duty
YouTube video by Meaningful Stone - Topic
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I'm thinking, for a long time i've hated a lot of modern video game UI/HUDs for being super minimalistic and boring where it feels like i'm scrolling through Hulu instead of an inventory but Persona 5's UI was so highly praised and yet I rarely see any games even attempt to imitate it
I'm thinking how much I loved Act 2 in Inscryption back when I played it and how badly I wish there was like a spinoff that's just Act 2 and it's suuuuper long with more balance
I was watching this Youtube video for Fortune's Weave and this had me burst out laughing
There was an ATLUS survey and I was getting excited at just the very thought of SMTIV and Apocalypse getting releases onto Steam, Same with Etrian Odyssey Nexus and IV
I find it funny a lot of my favorite video games came out before I was even able to read very good
I keep thinking about how much I wish nintendo would make a clamshell DS again, RAM is expensive, Storage is expensive. But the 3DS never used a lot of RAM or Storage... they could make a HD DS and just make it a little stronger with like 1 new feature and that'd be enough for me
I know it's a really common thing for people to say but I really really mean it when I say I just truly hate my life, I really wish I was born as someone else very often, even just being the average person, and having the most common occurrences in my life would be better than this
I'm too busy with studies but sometimes I do daydream about the game I want to make one day I'm still sad no one else has thought to make it, I just want that kind of experience to exist.
I like pokemon crystal clear as a romhack but I wish there was one for the unova region games that also had a really easy to use custom trainer spritesheet maker tool thingy like crystal clear does. It's so fun making your own trainer
I do wonder sometimes if id be happy in a relationship because I pretty much only really tried to be in one once but it went pretty badly. I feel like there were two other times in my life I kinda wanted to but nothing ever happened with those people in the end
I've been playing this game a bit lately and I really like it I recommend it! store.steampowered.com/app/2436940/...
Sephiria on Steam
Sephiria is a top-down action rogue-lite game with pixel graphics. Go down the tower, meet various animals, and collect various talismans and artifacts to become stronger.
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sometimes I feel sad not being able to share certain games or things with friends because it's only available in english
My anxiety has been really hard to deal with lately for me but as much as I try to ignore it, it's still making me freeze up and have difficulty even speaking with friends at times
I used to be like, shamelessly myself but then people would kinda copy me on social media and I didn't like that but sometimes I wanna express more of the abstract side of myself more again cuz it's been so many years
There are so many things I'm grateful for... things really can always get worse, be grateful while you can
Sometimes I get phantom smells because my sense of smell is so bad, It's usually not what you'd expect though they are like smell hallucinations and it'll be things like; Rubber Alcohol Latex Gasoline Mint Pickle Brine Banana Peel Leather Chlorine Pool Smell random stuff like this
I had a ton of scares with my laptop today and my cortisol was through the roof but i'm sitting here now and it works and I can only hope it'll work tomorrow in the morning
there's a level of guilt I feel trying to use my Japanese in non-learning spaces, like I'm just a hinderance or awkward to interact with because I don't speak well. I think at this point the anxiety of that feeling is stronger than any anxiety I have for speaking in the first place.
