tindu

@tindu-art.bsky.social

fan artist | haladriel (TROP) & boblena (Thunderbolts*) & natejules (Euphoria) & creelson (Stranger Things) & Aizen (Bleach) | eng/rus | Minors DNI | No AI

Every time I come to terms with things and think I just need to endure a little longer and everything will get better, life gives me a new kick in the ass. There are no words in the language to describe how terribly tired I am of everything

tindu@tindu-art.bsky.social · 3h ago

What a great start to the morning: the Central Bank revoked the license of the bank where all our money was on cards. Now I have no idea what to do. Like things weren’t already bad enough

What a great start to the morning: the Central Bank revoked the license of the bank where all our money was on cards. Now I have no idea what to do. Like things weren’t already bad enough

Antidepressant dreams are the strangest thing I’ve ever experienced. They happen every time I close my eyes. They’re very plot-heavy, a little creepy, but so vivid that they stick in my memory all day until the next dream

Every time I start thinking “Oh, this is it! I’m actually a bit happy!”, I get a big relapse. I get that feeling apathetic and neutral is better than feeling awful but I just want enough emotions to be able to act. I’ve got tons of ideas for art (TROP, ST, Bleach) but no energy to start any of them

Like so many others, I’ve fallen hard for The Apothecary Diaries (I would absolutely throw hands for Jinshi). On top of that I’m head over heels for Sparks of Tomorrow (Yosuke Mizoe, my poor little meow meow). And then I remembered Bleach (where would I even be without it?)

For almost a month I spent most of my days asleep, and when I could actually fight the drowsiness and keep my eyes open, I watched anime. Today is the second day I haven’t been drawn to just sleep the next five hours away in oblivion

Idk what got into me but I’m keeping up the tradition of remembering Bleach once every 10 years (2006–2016–2026) and falling into the fandom. Yesterday was the episode I’d been waiting for the most, I waited 10 years for it, and it was the disappointment of the year. Although my expectations were

By some fucking prayers I made it to my psychiatrist appointment and I’m back with my cymbalta family. I still can’t have psychotherapy at all, haha

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Looks like I got heatstroke during my walk with Cooper today: my head is completely unable to think, it’s spinning like crazy and I even fell a couple of times at home. This climate is definitely not for me 🫩🫠 I feel like shit

Sometimes I really wish I had more creelson shippers around me. I know it’s an extremely rare ship but I feel so comfortable in it and I’m happy it exists and I have a million ideas for it. And sometimes it feels like I’m just screaming about them into Exedodomini’s ear non‑stop

I decided I’d really like to have more friends in ST fandom, so I joined a big bang lol. Looks like I’m gonna draw some steddie art, should be fun

Almost none of my old works are still online for obvious reasons but a few have survived. Sometimes it’s so interesting to peek into past-me’s head and try to understand how I even came up with those ideas

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Mr. Whatsit or lab!Henry? I’m starting to lean toward the first one because I want a softer facial expression but at the same time, the glasses worry me, since they’d make the figure more fragile 🥹 But then what pose?

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Today I realized I’m done with my parents. I’ve always helped them with everything I could. Never said no when it came to money. But every time I asked for help? Nothing, never. If they’d helped us with the documents, we might not have had to leave at all. Today was the breaking point.