please don’t reach out to me or message me. i just want to be forgotten

its always the same and it wont change

truthfully i just wish people would let me go already because i don’t want to keep being a burden like this anymore, i’m tired of struggling and struggling and never making the progress i want, i’m tired of being like this and feeling like this and being so draining, i don’t want this anymore

i’m sorry for everything

does “zeemarz” for a username Suck or is it Good

second sanctuary doesn’t look different from first sanctuary just because susie made it, it looks different since it was made from the memory of the first sanctuary. feel like this keeps getting misinterpreted. a dark world was created from the memory of a dark world, rather than the location itself

making progress in therapy but still having a lot of missteps, I'm sorry for all of the concerning posts still. bad cycle I keep trying to break. I don't want to just go ahead and outright delete anything and pretend like it didn't happen. just don't want to keep feeling this way anymore

please let me go

im done

every time i start to feel better and make genuine progress i end up crashing and burning again and it’s a cycle that feels impossible to escape no matter how hard i try, i feel so worn down by too many things that after unpacking one it doesn’t make a difference for the others crushing me

im sorry

sorry. appreciate anyone who reached out. won’t go into what happened. will try to stop posting.

i’m sorry to everyone i failed. i tried for so long to pull myself out of this hole yet have fallen further into hopelessness no matter what. nothing helps anymore and despite receiving help, it’s just never enough. i’m ready for this to end. i wish i could have made it through.

everything keeps getting worse no matter how hard i try to hold on and i can’t do this anymore. things keep going wrong. i just want it to end. i’m sorry.

i don’t know how to say this, but i think it’s best that nobody hears from me ever again. for a long time i’ve been a burden on others and no matter how hard i’ve tried to get better, i just can’t pull myself out of this spiral. it’s gotten worse for years and i see no light anymore. i’m sorry.

i wish my life had amounted to anything meaningful

genuinely what am i supposed to do anymore. shit just keeps getting worse and im inevitably just going to start doing this shit over and over again where i vent publicly and make an ass of myself because i feel like i have nobody. i'm so tired of all the things that keep happening

i’m sorry

im sorry to anyone ive concerned regarding my mental health and well being. im still receiving help but barely holding on. i really want things to get better and im sorry for being like this

quick depression break for deltarune chapter 5 crackpot theories

makes me wonder if what got me banned was posting spritesheets with grid patterns, plus the mass reports from bigots. they really don’t want to admit that anything is their fault here because that would completely undermine their moderation and highlight the problem with their reliance on ai

MotorRoach@motorroach.bsky.social · last mo.

One Discord staff member claims this was already fixed, so I'm hoping that bit is true. But "this has nothing to do with AI" and "the bans are temporary until manually reviewed"? Bull-fucking-shit lmfao. My infractions are still standing and only your worthless AI moderators reviewed it. Fuck you.

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers crackpot theory with zero basis or reasoning: what if the name easter eggs are characters that are important to the prophecy, and the Knight is kidnapping them to stop the prophecy from being fulfilled? effectively: it's a hit list.

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okay done posting about deltarune for now back to feeling horribly depressed ✌️

hyperfixations are a hell of a thing to help with extreme depression but my god is it absolute hell to combine that with being a deltarune fan and its release dates

help me, a disabled transmasc, escape abuse from my step-father tl;dr: stepfather has increased the intensity of abuse from verbal to include physical, and not only do i need out, so do my grandfather and mother, both physically disabled and my mother immunocompromised. ko-fi.com/superkirbylo...

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deltarune chapter 5 spoilers maybe like this? for "game worlds," I didn't visualize it properly -- think of them more like parallels, each with their own layers underneath, rather than existing as one layer. idk

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers so gaster has different people working undercover in the simulation to make sure things go smoothly. “normal npc” did something to onionsan to keep them from discovering something. sans is supposed to observe but got too attached and involved with toriel.

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers crackpot theory diagram

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers Maybe Ralsei's a tree with roots spanning all of Hometown: - hat form and door resemble tree - distinction of plants as separate from lightners and darkners, ralsei's jealousy of flowery, identity crisis - can appear in any dark world - "darkness brewing under the town"