Onyx (Human Disaster)
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We love bones & knives | We're still in our MCR phase Organizer for Live From The Apocalypse TTRPG Performer Writer Fully feral ☕️ https://ko-fi.com/thekilljoyz
One of the hardest things over the past year has been the realization that we're not in a place to engage with the content and themes in TTRPGs/LARPs that we used to love. We know that may change as we work on recovery but right now we need to be mindful of triggers and more cautious.
Got the plague, so we're watching let's plays of Alan Wake 2 and that's getting us wanting to write again.
Chronic fatigue and pain, autistic burnout, and trauma symptoms make an exhausting combination to live with 🫠 We are so tired of being exhausted and drained all the time. Bonus points for the fun of trying to explain to disability why all of these factors make it impossible to work right now.
Very done with today and it’s not even noon 😮💨
It is starting to feel like autumn and we are ready 🙏
A boy, sleeping on a Mothman blanket with a ribcage pillow beside him.
Our name change went through the same day we saw MCR and if that isn't fated to be, we don't know what is. 🖤
Saw MCR last night in DC and everything about the show was incredibly healing 🙏
Going dark for the foreseeable future. Catch y'all on the flipside.
Feeling so much grief as the upcoming anniversary approaches. I didn't know that barely a month later everything would fall apart and a year later, people I shared a beautiful memory with would no longer be a part of my life.
It's been almost a year since things fully crumbled and that's hard to sit with. There has been so much loss and grief and old trauma resurfacing and new trauma happening. We're definitely in a better place than we were but there is still so much further to go and some days that feels exhausting.
🫠 Today sucks. I'd say "I'm going back to bed" but my body's decided that sleep is impossible so...
Trying to come to terms with the limitations from being mentally ill, chronically ill, and (currently at least) disabled is exhausting. 😮💨
Pulled four major arcana in our tarot reading this morning and we're sure that's completely fine... 🙃
Today is a hard day and everything is feeling raw. There is so much grief and it is hard to hold.
Without saying your age what's your favourite movie that came out when you were 18 ?
Nightcrawler's Pity: X-Men Quote
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Every day we get a little more feral and a little hotter ✌️
Spent years posting this semi-jokingly, only to discover over the past year that it is unfortunately very true. Nothing like discovering that you are just one walking trauma response. 🙃
Over here begging and pleading for creativity and inspiration to return. Autistic burnout and trauma symptoms are sucking the life out of any creative spark.
Had to get an emergency root canal today, so that's where we're at. 🙃
We adulted and scheduled all of our consults from our latest PCP appointment. Please clap.
Rami Malek: I Deserve A Treat (SNL)
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Our family needs some good vibes and well wishes today. 😮💨 Our elderly cat is at the emergency vet and things are not looking great in terms of prognosis.
A weekend in the mountains, in a city made for me? Don't mind if I yes.
It's been really hard to come to terms with the fact that many of the fears I had were true. Out of sight, out of mind. The moment you stop doing things for people, they decide you're dead to them. The moment you slow down, everything crumbles. 2025 and 2026 have been sadly illuminating.