🫠 Today sucks. I'd say "I'm going back to bed" but my body's decided that sleep is impossible so...

Trying to come to terms with the limitations from being mentally ill, chronically ill, and (currently at least) disabled is exhausting. 😮‍💨

Pulled four major arcana in our tarot reading this morning and we're sure that's completely fine... 🙃

Today is a hard day and everything is feeling raw. There is so much grief and it is hard to hold.

Without saying your age what's your favourite movie that came out when you were 18 ?

Nightcrawler's Pity: X-Men Quote

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Every day we get a little more feral and a little hotter ✌️

Spent years posting this semi-jokingly, only to discover over the past year that it is unfortunately very true. Nothing like discovering that you are just one walking trauma response. 🙃

For real. #noai #art

Over here begging and pleading for creativity and inspiration to return. Autistic burnout and trauma symptoms are sucking the life out of any creative spark.

Had to get an emergency root canal today, so that's where we're at. 🙃

We adulted and scheduled all of our consults from our latest PCP appointment. Please clap.

Rami Malek: I Deserve A Treat (SNL)

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Our family needs some good vibes and well wishes today. 😮‍💨 Our elderly cat is at the emergency vet and things are not looking great in terms of prognosis.

A weekend in the mountains, in a city made for me? Don't mind if I yes.

Time for the next phase. Wish us luck.

It's a melancholy morning.

It's been really hard to come to terms with the fact that many of the fears I had were true. Out of sight, out of mind. The moment you stop doing things for people, they decide you're dead to them. The moment you slow down, everything crumbles. 2025 and 2026 have been sadly illuminating.

Drinking Christmas in Paris tea at an unseasonable time? Don't mind if we do. 🍵

Someone told us this morning that we have a "golden soul" and we'll take it. (We were communing with the wild bunnies at the time and just letting the bunnies graze around us)

Maybe if we make enough lists and reorganize our entire home, we will finally feel in control of our life again. 🤷

Announcing DOWNRIGHT SCOUNDRELS NEEDED. The Anarchist Cookbook meets Unforgiven in a story that is unapologetically about the means and methods one should use to interfere with the logistics and supply lines of those in power. March 2027.

Announcing Downright Scoundrels Needed by Sarah Gailey - Reactor

Return to the world of Upright Women Wanted for an explosive train heist!

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Dropping in for proof of life ✌️Wishing y'all the best during these times.

One step forward, two steps back 😮‍💨

CW: pet loss This anniversary is hard. I miss my baby girl.

Onyx (Human Disaster)@thekilljoyz.bsky.social · last yr.

CW: pet loss. We said goodbye to Nancy on Friday. We had almost 13 years with our baby girl. She was the best, most spoiled creature and we miss her greatly. Give your pets some pats and love on her behalf.

Relearning (or maybe just learning for the first time) how to be a person is challenging.

I needed this quote today from the amazing @sarahgailey.bsky.social: "Do what you can. Care for yourself and the people around you. Believe that the world can be better than it is now. Never give up."

It's been wild to wake up feeling rested and just filled with joy and creative inspiration. Things aren't perfect but we feel like we're not just getting ourself back but finding ourselves for the first time in a long time (if ever).

We've been able to feel joy and excitement and hope again for the first time in far too long. There's a lot that's still hard but our baseline is no longer pure numbness and depression.

The secret to good writing is being a freak, yes, but the secret to writing interesting and complex characters is being mentally ill.

Double fisting a cup of coffee and a cup of tea because we've been awake since 4:30 this morning. 🙃

Insurance denied our peer-to-peer review, so we could definitely use some extra help/support especially with a bunch of dental bills also coming up. When it rains, it pours.

Onyx (Human Disaster)@thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 4mo ago

We've been in intensive treatment and out of work for awhile and we've set up a Ko-Fi to help out during this time. No expectation but if you're able to help, amazing, and if you're not in a place for that, we would love help with signal boosting. Wishing all of y'all the best during these Times™️