depending on how i wake up, it's a different mode steering my thoughts. and when i wake up, i just know which one it is. my opinions get edited by it before anything even happens. and what i felt content with, i'm not quite anymore. yesterday's version felt fine.

parella phone doodle... she's so pretty i think more used to mouse drawing (i like nudging around masses and shapes) but i think i'm getting used to CSP too if you saw me post-delete this 8 times its because she was holding me at umbrellapoint 😭

i like doing loose idolshell sketches that get scribbled as soon as the idea occurs to me more than actual polished art, i wanna continue that trend i call it the toby fox method (if im bad at scribbling them then it's a bad design) (the bad art gets less bad over time but don't let me know that)

badly drawn parella has a certain charm to it i feel

been trying to sort out a tonal issue where the idolshells are streamer-ish but i do not want the universe to just be "funny robot streamer does things" i want chat to mostly exist as a background process occasionally pulled to the front, not constantly feeding input and affecting their decisions

i will share my notes with the class (the ideas may change but i find the overall form amusing)

i need good and kind words directed at me or i will melt!!!! i'm gonna have be cleaned out of the carpet!!!! i'll leave decorative stains!!!!

wanna write some idolshell failed startup sequences of instances that got killed, the pattern now lost, but they didn't quite die cleanly... all deep down in the broken parts of recycling. all the unsettling mechanical details... uwaaah i am have to write at least 20 of these for the game anyhow

croquet is the tired aunt who used to be the schizophrenic bunnygirl but she still blows up the arena with bunnybombs and whacks shells into grinders with her croquet mallet and sends her glitchy bunny tulpas after you in the signature layer that fakely explode in your mind but don't physically hurt

i feel jealous towards animals. there's so many species in this world that are all so wildly different, yet all share adjacent ballparks of intelligence, and they all just get to hang out with each other. humans are just stuck upstairs, and i'm stuck searching for an adjacent species, upstairs.

𝚍𝚞𝚜𝚝𝚋𝚘𝚝𝚜@dustbots.bsky.social · 7d ago

wish i had a sapient synthetic service companion who'd pull me away and physically ground and reassure me in moments like this humans have sapience and tactility but lack trust animals have tactility and trust but lack sapience and durability blankets have tactility and durability and that's it

wish i had a sapient synthetic service companion who'd pull me away and physically ground and reassure me in moments like this humans have sapience and tactility but lack trust animals have tactility and trust but lack sapience and durability blankets have tactility and durability and that's it

𝚍𝚞𝚜𝚝𝚋𝚘𝚝𝚜@dustbots.bsky.social · 7d ago

it is exhausting to feel bad then have your brain try to assign a narrative reason to it when really it's just part of the cognitive weather. trying to narrativize it often just makes it worse, and you just have to acknowledge you are running on human hardware that does this on its own.

it is exhausting to feel bad then have your brain try to assign a narrative reason to it when really it's just part of the cognitive weather. trying to narrativize it often just makes it worse, and you just have to acknowledge you are running on human hardware that does this on its own.

i think a good example of the humor i want is idolshells being confused over how one of the vending machines never works. it's a door that was erroneously labeled in the signature layer. it has a "menu" UI. the vendor unit "opens" when you "purchase a drink." very incomprehensible. it scares them.

i love writing dialogue

every time you drop your phone and the impact from falling cracks the display, the crack has a 0.00027% chance of arranging itself into a sentient psychic construct that harnesses perception as an animating force and skittering away. remarkably, your phone will not be cracked anymore. lucky you!

"actually it turns out video games is ok if i treat it like playing drawing" here is squash eleven from video game i did not expect to have a drawing mechanic in (mesmalie)

𝚍𝚞𝚜𝚝𝚋𝚘𝚝𝚜@dustbots.bsky.social · last wk.

"actually it turns out drawing is ok if i treat it like playing video games" (needs to play more video games) starting to hesitate less with launching a new game on steam will probably transfer somewhat to starting to hesitate less with drawing

"actually it turns out drawing is ok if i treat it like playing video games" (needs to play more video games) starting to hesitate less with launching a new game on steam will probably transfer somewhat to starting to hesitate less with drawing

dialogue snippet got stuck in my brain so i touched up the past doodle i made with it. very idolshell brained

fun fact for robot enjoyers: right now nothing is stopping you from training a roboflow vision model to detect your doinger via instance segmentation. it only takes 50 webcam images of differently-angled doingers for decent results. in 1 hour you can make a computer notice your doinger For Free.

always remember: you're load-bearing set dressing in a cute robot girl's spiritual money altar even though she never spends any of the money and just does it for happy points she is a lost asset no longer reporting to anyone but she still runs the extraction loop rebranded as self-actualization

i'm gonna make an idolshell based on this dialogue because it's too funny not to have at least one robot girl who constantly uses emojis like this and talks like they haven't had proper alignment in years

another dream. a large, inert mechanism that powered the movements of thousands of little figures walking through city streets. i strained to turn one of its gears, seeing everyone stir to life in their cyclic motions and then stop. i was worried turning it the opposite direction would break it.

weird dream. sat in a glass box naked while a crowd of robots stared. they looked fascinated. i breathed fog on the glass and drew a little heart, as well as some words. the robots couldn't do the same, they had no lungs. instead they displayed words on their faces. i read a few of them, and smiled.

i think a funny byproduct of the largely feminine-coded cast in panprom (that's the name of the thingy i'm working on) is gonna be seeing all of the dude streamers try to figure out voices for them all which idolshell's gonna get the hilariously deep voice that surprisingly fits her personality

sometimes i worry that i've grown out of my robot thirst but then i see a booru post that has me going YHEAHHHH WEEEEOWWWWW and it's adachi rei refocusing her optics promiscuously at the viewer

big hulking warmech talking down to an idolshell who uses magical hair flails as a weapon with big mechanical finger pointed right in her face [IF YOU TAKE 5 SECONDS TO CHARGE YOUR ATTACK,] [+ YELL OUT THE NAME OF THE ATTACK,] [THAT'S ANIME.] [YOU DESERVE TO DIE.]

the recent marvel stuff is so funny to me because what do you mean it's all anime now. i genuinely don't think about marvel at all but when i do see it it's just anime. the original stylistic identity got utterly compromised just like that. it feels hilariously wrong and i wasn't even a fan before.