Ive just felt bad all day. Dysphoric and depressed. And I think my medicine is causing anxiety and paranoia as I keep seeing faces in the corner of my eye.

I was hoping that after matching with 2 people during June it was a sign that maybe people could be attracted to me and interested in me. And that Id finally go on a date. But... somehow despite being on 5 dating apps its gone even more silent.

Getting the urge to start streaming again but don't want to until I get my teeth bullshit sorted... again.

Last week when I was at my friend's house I gave 3 people a gift I had prepared for them in 2024 but didnt get a chance to handover last year. When I gave them the gifts and explained the intention behind them they all just told me "You are so thoughtful and such a great gift giver"

In someone's chat and they were talking about FMA: "Hey remember when someone came into chat saying Sho Tucker did nothing wrong" Chat: "oh yeah they were banned forever" Me: "Just like how Nina and the Dog will be together forever" Chat: "Listen here you little shit"

Earlier this month I bought tickets to a con, a hotel reservation, rave tickets, and stuff for a cosplay all to hang out with some new people I met. Was super proud of myself for stepping out of my comfort zone. But life said "Fuck you" and the bridge in my mouth snapped

Once again satisfying my urge to get my face penetrated by a hard rod, aka got my nose pierced.

After having bleeding when going to the bathroom earlier this year and finding out I literally am full of "it" I've finally been put on medication to help. Good news it works. Bad news, it works.

Spotted in the wild at the Walmart parking lot and what a fucking mood

Me when I'm in someones Twitch chat:

Starting to feel as if the medicine has stopped working. If I keep everything I have going on at this pace Im going to crash, if I give myself a moment to breathe and slow down Im going to crash.

Just heard a snippet from the musical Good Guy With a Gun and went out loud "No Kimiko Glenn's accent my weakness!"

Finally got someone to penatrate my mouth with a hard rod, aka I got a side labret piercing

Fuck you mean I've seen everyone Hinge

Walking back from the Rave and say to myself "I should eat the first thing I see" Walked up a hill and the first thing I saw was a sign for Dicks "Unfortunately no one offered that to me"

Bloodrave

The Rave has convinced me of a few things. I need to learn to do my makeup. I need a Septum, Eyebrow,and tongue piercing stat. I need to dye my hair ASAP.

There are seriously so many hot people of all shapes, sizes, genders, and colors. Im one part jealous and one part wishing I had people I knew here or didnt have social anxiety.

Overheard someone at the bar talking about wanting piercings and I showed them my fake ones and both them and their friend were shocked because they apparently looked natural on me.

At my first Rave and I just see a lot of hot people and Im mentally going "Goth, Goth, alt, emo,... why does that guy look like Gus Johnson, goth, goth."

Had a dream where I saw myself with more curves, longer hair dyed with highlights, and just more feminine yet slightly androgynous features. Can I go back to that dream reality me please

Heard someone refer to Mitch McConnel's current state as Rigor Tortoise and I let out an unholy laugh

41 hours without power it's finally back!

All i did was sleep yesterday because I didn't have power. Its 2:30 AM and I still don't have power. All the groceries I bought on Friday have to be thrown out so close to over $100. I'm livid and almost out of water and can't do anything cause nothing is open around me.

In Dairy Queen because still don't have power just witnessed two young girls likely no older than 5 go "Uncle Kelly... 6 7" I want to die

My power has been out for 5 hours and might not even be back until tomorrow evening. Fuck

Its hot outside so I decided I wanted to be hot as well 🔥🔥🔥

My Cousin Vinny: Ace Attorney Had to finally release this from my head

Your nostalgia is nothing more than necrophilia.