"And you... who never thought to question if this was how things were supposed to be... I convict your conviction. History is contingency and things could always have been otherwise... and still might. And 'still might' will end in time all you held so perpetual...

If I've impacted your life in a positive way, and that still means something to you, please let me know. My DMs are open, and I need to hear your voices again. Give me a reason stick around.

"It's not hard to be a good person." Yes it is, because the second you stop being one, even for a moment, everyone stops seeing you as one forever.

I just want to exist...

If I have personally wronged you through my actions both now and in the past, directly or indirectly, I want you to know that I love you, and I'm sorry. None of you deserved that from me, and I know I can never take that back or repair the damage caused. You deserve so much better, and I failed you.

I don't know what to do anymore. Everywhere I turn, my past is right there ready to show itself to those around me and cause them to act out. VRChat was my second life, but... I fear there's nowhere left for me to go, nowhere that I can just be myself and make people happy. I just... I'm sorry. 💔

He was a good base for the last three years, but it's time for a new way forward! Farewell Tosca Rex Farin, and hello Waggan Farin! <3

I know it's too soon to be thinking about this, but... I really wanna DJ again.

"I'm still me, just... different. And that's okay, I think." - Anonymous

How I've been feeling lately...

It's 2026 now, and for the sake of growth, I'm gonna keep my eyes forward. The goals: 1. Start DJing again 2. Live more in the moment 3. Forgive myself for old mistakes 4. Rediscover pure joy 5. Share it all with the world It's the year of self-improvement, and I've got 365 days to get shit done.

Quote this with what you have accomplished in 2025 no matter how small. - didn't die - traveled to Europe for the first time - DJ'd at Nordic Fuzzcon for my first ever IRL stage performance - DJ'd at FWA at the Georgia Aquarium - started therapy (unrelated to the above) - am somehow still alive

Loprov@loprov.wtf · 8mo ago

Quote this with what you have accomplished in 2025 no matter how small. - alive - guest of honor for 2 cons - 1st time singing on my own music - got to visit friends and loved ones - ready to date again - directed my 1st music video - restarted online PWYW/free classes - tried pork brisket

Today is a magical day! :D

This Thanksgiving, I'm grateful for all the wonderful people I get to share this life with. From my real family to those I've met through VR, as well as those that provided me the opportunity to share music through DJing, I feel blessed with this life, and it wouldn't have been possible without you.

You’ve been kidnapped. The characters from the last TV show you watched are trying to rescue you. Who’s coming to save you? Yeah, I'll be fine. c:

20 Years of Marie the Foxy!@bigladydragon.art · 9mo ago

You been kidnapped, the characters from the last TV show you watched are coming to save you… I think I got decent odds here…

Looking back at my old posts, I was actually posting very little of my own stuff. Instead it was mostly reposting stuff from friends and VR clubs I wanted to show support for, plus the occasional shitpost to mix it up. I miss those times, those friends. Maybe I'll see it again, but I don't know. 💔

To those of you who are still my friends and are believing in me to bounce back, thank you. It really means the world to have you in my life. <3

Everything will be okay. Maybe not today, or tomorrow, or even in a year from now, but someday. Just live to see that day, okay?

Everyone's reminiscing about the good days that are no longer. Maybe we should take that as a sign to move forward and create some new good days. The past only exists for as long as we remember it. Don't let that hold you back from living today, here and now. We're all still here. Make it count! <3

Today is Farin's 3rd birthday. It's been a chaotic three years, but he's been my supportive bean through it all. We're looking ahead to making our future better than the past, one small step at a time

Recovery takes time. Healing takes time. Improvement takes time. The process is started. I want to be better, and I'm committed to showing it. Whatever it takes to make things right... But it will take time.

I start behavioral therapy on Wednesday. Time to do what I should've done three years ago.

@vrchat.com Did something happen to the Discord? I can't access it for some reason.

Happy Monday, y'all! We're back on track with STRAWBERRY JAM No 117, the POST-BURN CHILLOUT! Come chill & listen to me ramble about how I catastrophically shit myself in the deep playa at Burning Man 2025!! EXCITE!!! In VRChat & at strawbs.tv 3-6p PST 6-9p EST 11p-2a BST

Looks like my calendar is free from November onward. Available for concept deign jobs for hard surface/sci fi work! Re shares appreciated!

It was a good day at the Arcade today. c:

I've made a lot of mistakes in my life. Some small, some big, some VERY big. I can't change the past, but I can change my present. If you know what I've done and choose to judge me for it, all I can say is I'm sorry I was not better. But I won't try to change your mind if you've already made it up.