Feeling better than yesterday as the anxiety has passed but the questions remain. Lots about a fulfilling life, But big one is how do i live and maintain a #BDSM lifestyle vs just play. Is it possible for me? Is it possible here? Do i want it OR need it? How do i find courage to seek more?

Absurdly big #gay #pride glasses on today. It’s my 2nd day cycling to work & I’m feeling good. BUT the hair!! Sweaty mess leads to huge puffy nest on my head.

Lots of feelings today. Too many feelings!!

Friday… Again??! Ughh I wanted to stay in the shower so bad!

Does anyone else find riding a Top/ Doms dick weird? I know they’re using your hole & have probably asked for you to ride them, but being on top of them just feels weird! Under or at their boots! Under their ass! Under their body! Under their control! Chained down! Restrained against! Locked in!

Weighed myself today for the first time in 5/6 months 🙈 20lbs heavier!! I suppose I should be thankful my coping mechanism isn’t drugs or alcohol, but we all know fat can be just as dangerous. At least i’m making progress and getting healthy habits back. Reminding myself: 1 thing at a time!

Let it be known I went to the bakery to buy treats for the team, and bought nothing for myself. I then walked past the coffee shop, and the cafe, and still arrived to office with nothing for me. AND THEN!! I ate a salad! There’s hope!

Daydreaming about permanent body modifications today. Why today?? No idea! Big thoughts of surrendering myself to be remade fit for purpose. Body modifications like steroids, tattoos, branding, piercings. Also Protocol. Providing structure, support, security, purpose, belonging, growth, relief

Haven’t done much #CigarPig training recently. Think I’ll get a couple today, hide in the dog park this evening & work on breathing in that smoke deep. Also… I can’t help but notice how I hold it! Fingers pointed like I’m drinking tea from a china cup?! This is why I need supervised training!

I really need a hairy sweaty ass on my face. My mind is full of filth, sweaty ass eating doesn’t even touch the side. Work?! On a Friday?!

I am awake at 1:30am because….??? Eurgh!

Photos because you (we) are horny fuckers YouTube link in next post because it is an amazing presentation As someone who is actively trying to push my limits this was really interesting to listen to! Great discussion in the last 1/2 too about seducing vs coercing & today’s consent culture vs #BDSM

So many Daddies have this amazing joyful & sexy personality. The whole video is great but 31:00 onwards is so true when he’s talking about “that’s why we have Doms”. Where the Dom is reading your responses, you think you’ve reached your limit, but they know you haven’t!! youtu.be/pbIw6zAnuvw?...

LDG Presents: Flogging with Daddy Robert

YouTube video by San Francisco Leathermen's Discussion Group

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Bored at work. Had a look through the library. 😮 😱

As the last mark disappears from my back and the craving for more returns, I wonder how many of you (Dom and sub) into heavy #BDSM #D/s play regularly. What does regular mean to you? Is your itch always scratched? Is there always a bruise or mark on your body? Does other play fill the void?

Results from last nights beating 😃 A wonderful night of worship, submission & fucking beautiful pain. I am still floating on air, until my budget meeting at 10am I’m sure! Note: I was sat on a towel after the shower, my ass is not that wrinkly, yet. #BDSM #D/s #submission #ImpactPlay #GayBDSM

BEST. NIGHT. EVER! I got an amazing beating and feel on top of the world (photos tomorrow) AND I got a thunder storm!!

#BDSM #D/s question. Who receives pain as punishment? Are there any pain pigs who can’t stand a certain kind of pain? Anyone who hates pain, where even a little beating is enough to enforce correction? And how do you manage consent when the purpose is to inflict something you don’t like/ want?

I’ve had some really lovely feedback to photos and my profile recently and i really really appreciate it! For the longest time i have thought i was ugly, not interesting & not worth anything! But finding the leather community, especially the dynamics i share, has given me a huge confidence boost!

Ok!! WFH maybe isn’t that bad. Spent the day in #rubber and when things get boring i start huffing #Poppers #GayRubber #GayPig #RubberPig #RubberKink #TooFatToBeADroneATM 😂

Is not fitting into any of my rubber going to be the thing to snap me out of whatever this is ??! 🤣 🤣 🙈🤣😭

I’m a man of simple pleasures. * Blow cigar smoke in my face and call me a faggot. * Piss down my throat and spit on my face * Get me to lick your boots clean and then store me away in bondage You know… just normal stuff really!

It’s Friday! You know what that means! I do nothing at work until approximately 10 minutes before I’m supposed to leave. There are so many more productive things I could be doing as an object, slave, gimp, urinal or ashtray! Testing the sound proofing of gags? Target practice using my back?

I get so fidgety when a Dominant man tells me, or announces to the group, he needs to piss. I want to offer my mouth every time, but there must be an etiquette to this? I just want to be useful. #WS #Watersports #PissPig #HumanUrinal #Piss #Domsub

Imagine filling that bag full of cigar smoke and poppers… and occasionally air to ensure it lasts as long as possible. Maybe a couple of days worth of piss washing around the inside too?

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Gagging during deep-throat is not allowed… otherwise, it’s straight to rubber jail for an indefinite period of time. @sir-lmm.bsky.social #bdsm #rubber #slave #master #bondage

I think I’ve followed too many hot hairy men and it’s diluted my feed. Where have all the leather men, Dads, cigars and BDSM gone :( Reposting this because I haven’t been tortured and beaten in a while, and how fucking hot is this!

Had a good talk with my NP. This isn’t Anxiety or Depression. With my life improving significantly I knew that, but it’s also left me very confused as to what’s happening! I have been fighting myself daily to do things I know are good for me, and ending up doing the exact opposite. IM TIRED!!

I swear to god I walked to work behind John Hammond 🦖🦕 The white linen suit, hat and glasses! He had a cigar held in his lips, and I just followed behind enjoying his smoke. He wandered off as I got to work :(

I have to do orientation today for a new counsellor. And I can’t focus. Instead I’m here dreaming about being suffocated and forced cigar smoke until I’m a mess! My cage is straining and my emails remain unread. #CigarPig (In Training) Old video of #HumanAshtray leaving no waste.

Yesterday work was worth it because i knew i was getting flogged at the local bar for a fundraiser. Today: