runt

@grubzila.bsky.social

18+ if you are a minor you will die

i'm never posting here ever again. i have to stop making porn. i am addicted to finding fat women attractive and it's evil and disgusting and i'm losing control of my life. i'm jaundiced. i smell like car water. i'm down to my last toenail. everyone in my life has given up on me and i'm kidding

i've been dealing with my endocrinologist not uppinh my estradiol dosage until my bloodwork starts looking better but with my cholesterol meds and less body dysmorphia the stakes have kinda lowered. i couldn't stand the obligation before. it feels like i'm actually able to live now. call it autism

runt@grubzila.bsky.social · 4mo ago

i've never had to seriously weigh trying to get healthy vs. staying fat until recently but i don't think my preference between the two has changed. especially having a partner who's so into it too (sounds selfless but it's kinda just an excuse)

i've never had to seriously weigh trying to get healthy vs. staying fat until recently but i don't think my preference between the two has changed. especially having a partner who's so into it too (sounds selfless but it's kinda just an excuse)