Highjack | Feroca 🔜 ???

@highjack.cackle.us

Devious copper fluffdrake or yote! | He/Him, Gay, Single | 41 | DC Area | Writer, 3D/2D Artist, flowers. | ❌🍺 Sober since Nov 2015 | Outdoorsy | Democratic Socialist | Hope over Cynicism |🔺🧵 - @sarahcatfursuits.com | 18+ Content, no minors please.🔞

Won't lie, first three weeks of being off nicotine slaughtered all the joy in my life, including doing art. So grateful to everyone who popped by and checked in, though 🥰 But the drive is slowly, slowly coming back. here's a mashup of heads I did while watching things. I'll count this as one #15

simple head sketches.simple head sketches

Day 18 without nicotine and I'm ready to get off the ride jfc. the psychic whiplash from feeling amazing, loving and hopeful to a colorless place where nobody gives a shit about me (lies) and asking why the fuck I'm still in furry hits swift and violent. Gotta remind myself: this. is. temporary.

I've put in ten pounds since stopping nic, as forecasted.. Still, challenging so many neuroses lately. Bring it on, I guess :E Grateful I don't feel like I'm alone in this, and for all of you who reached out. Means so much right now 🥰🥰

Lots of talk about how people don’t pay attention to furry-made media. I’ve tried for 16 years or so to support and promote furry writing. There are things missing off these shelves but this is a huge chunk of what I have here. How many of these have you ever heard of, if you’re not a writer?

I really don't like asking for help, I feel it's me being selfish, and people have enough shit going on in their lives. But this is me trying to do better and make needs known, rather than hoping you'll psychically pick up on it (and get butthurt when you don't lolololol). Addict-brain can be crazy

It says 1-3 months before the brain chemistry stabilizes post-nicotine, and I'm at 2 weeks today ... if I'm acting off/mopey until September, you'll at least know why.. The sadness comes in waves. if you have the bandwidth, please check in on this derg once in a while, he will appreciate it. 🙏

Probably feeling sad because I'm almost 2 weeks off of nicotine, but... In our attention economy, feels like people don't care about the progress, unless you have the numbers or the charm. I have neither. Regardless, if you're trying to hone your art too, please reach out, let's do it together~

Reptile heads. I've been very self-abusive over my art lately. "You're so far behind," I've been telling myself. Looking at this, I realize it wasn't just about skulls or anatomy... I barely understand shape and perspective. Back to more basics. You don't get curated me, you get the struggle :E #14

varietal reptile head sketches in desperate need of perspective understanding.

Absolutely 600% ran out of steam doing this mustelid one, especially trying to get the damned head shapes Just gotta keep practicing... I think I'll just practice shapes and angles for the next one. No pink hamsters, though. #13, 7 hours? 8?

a bunch of mustelid skulls, heads, and a pair of obnoxious solarisan cosplayers.

beaw~ I could only work on this in short bursts because my core is sore and swollen, but also bears. I'll do more and better later hopefully, and with 100% less pharmaceuticals in my head Next up: mustelids, I guess. :E #12, I have no idea.

a number of varying bear skull studies, different kinds of bear heads, with rushed coloring jobs

Been genuinely happy to see how much fun folks had at AC. But it's also been rough to see. I'm still terrified of going back to cons. It's not the drinking, it's the fear of being left out/forgotten, like: "you don't get to join us because you don't deserve it". Like everything, gotta work on it.

Holy shit this took forever, but I think it turned out okay! expression practice for two of the guys, Zach and Rhyat. Names may change, plans will not. also my hand aches. Honestly, I think I just wanted a reason to draw that specific poss face :V Bear with me.. #11, I'm not telling how long~

As the battle to figure out how to draw eyes and heads rages on, here's a possum study~ Didn't bother with muscles this time because they seem to be 90% mouth lol Next one I think is going to be really focused on refining shape/expression ... drawing round things is tough. #10, 6ish hours.

many different angles of a possum's skull and head.

Why oh why did I agree to this.. A gazelle study, modeled after a Soemmerring's I was not quite happy with this one, but I was happy that I did that bottom right one by only blocking it out. He's a tired boy~ The next one may poss-ibly be better :9 #9, ?? hours

skull, muscle, and shape study of a gazelle, with incredibly sloppy colors.

Kept going with the purrbeasts because I wasn't pleased with the last one... But I *am* kinda pleased with that mystery jag's expression. I liked puzzling it out and maybe I'll do a few of those with each study Next up, something a bit more unfamiliar for this derg 😰 #8, 6-ish hours ??

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Starting off with canid studies, these things take a while... I was drawing it by sight so it feels a bit sloppy and the proportions might be off, but i learned some things! Next up is big cats I think 🐆🐅 #6, 6+ hours

Skulls and muscle group studies of a canine face

To keep myself on track and not lose the plot again, I've created something of an arduous curriculum for what to focus on. The goal is to stick with it no matter what! It's definitely a lot, but I want to prove it to myself. 🧡

A list of artistic tasks for the purpose of getting better at drawing and figure!

As I continue to study and fuck/cheat/fumble around with anatomy, I remembered that I am quite fond of big cats! So I sketched out a smug cougar~ I do wonder: how do anthros get tats done? Perma-dye? Or do they shave the fur down and ink the follicles? A mystery :E #5, 6/14-15

some anatomy studies based on references and a cougar man flexing a bicep (it seems trendy to do)