i feel like a rabid raccoon trapped in a cage because i'm so starved for fan-content related to spy x family LIKE PLEASE ! !please. please please please!

i think i'm gonna change my art routine totally!! i'm so much more resourceful and patient now?!? i'm just gonna alternate through finishing all my works in progress instead of waiting until i have enough time to finish just one-- i think i'll end up drawing better that way 🥹

today was funny because i was quite well rested, motivated, and full of energy mentally the entire night-- so the caffeine withdrawal fatigue (bc i'm avoiding it) felt so obvious,,, if anything it was annoying but i endured it without doing a single thing 😳 i can't wait 'til this period is over lol

i no longer have an excuse to buy extra food and drinks 😭😭

there's so much i want to say and talk about and reflect on but i don't think anyone wants to hear it all -- but nor would i wanna draw it out either-- normally it's something i'd wanna talk about on here, but i was so busy that i couldn't... maybe i'll just write it in a journal 😭 gahh, so much...

cuts for bluesky 🥹

I'M FINIISHED!!! 🫪😖😖😭😭 well, the korean version is totally done. when it comes to the english version, i'll need to duplicate the files and re-edit them- but i still have until october to do that. the main point is- i'm totally free again!! i will definitely get some rest tho aaa

i'm in this phase of my life where i really, really, really don't want to sleep! 🫠 ever. i wish i could buy that perk like in the sims and make myself never need sleep LOL but ugh, it's 100% true that not sleeping gives you a higher risk of ... cancer 🫥😑

完成した無事☺️

i never thought i'd learn how to do nursing fast, so maybe language learning is the same way- like, i just need to practice it repeatedly, force myself into it on my own, to myself,, over and over, until it's like second nature... on a full time job basis ajdjjs

do y'know how it feels to notice a way to adjust a mistake in artwork that you weren't aware of in the past? in artwork in which you used to be able to see no flaws? artwork you really loved and thought was beautiful? seeing it as just a lot of flaws... it feels like the grieving process y'know...?!

i need to study korean really really hard, i need to live and breathe the korean language before next july 😫😭

HOLY COW i used to not be able to see anything wrong (drawing-wise, like perspective/anatomy stuff) with my banner, like i didn't know how i could improve it- BUT NOW I SEE IT ... HOLY i'm not even mad i'm actually excited WOW

lately i've noticed that i have this really, really crazy and constant urge to draw... is it like i'm addicted or something? because merely thinking about how badly i want to be drawing something (instead of what i'm doing now) is enough to make me feel like tearing up because i want it so bad 🫠

i think the past two days have been the only days out of this entire month that i haven't worked on my comic?!? i guess i can gaslight myself into thinking this is the valuable rest period where i'll be able to see and fix all the mistakes i made when i come back- after work i AM working on it...

i always listen to music with stereo speakers at home, but i have bad hearing, so to listen to music at work with earbuds is so nice because i can really just focus on the music in such a quiet environment and hear all the details within the songs 🤤🤤

i have finally reached that level of skill where i can walk around work during downtime with earbuds in my ear like the (good) senior nurses!! yes!!!!!!! got souvenir playing in my ear right now eheehh

i forgot what art fundamental practice helps you develop better anatomical/3d consistency when you're sketching?? i see people who can do that so well, and i mean-- i got better, but i constantly mess up and have to erase it over and over... ??

hehehehehehehheheheheheheheheheheheheeheheheeeheheheheheeheeheheeehhehehhehehehe aAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa keeping my art to myself is so. hard.

i figured out how to get my earbuds to work while i'm at work, and now it sounds like i'm hearing headphones even when it doesn't look like it 'cuz i can't hear very well out my left ear 😳🤙

i've been consistently posting loid here because i really like him (but also i find him hard to draw and i get happy when i nail his face) now yor i never really have a problem- she just get more and more pretty every time 🫪

i might start drawing heads from references with pen on paper after this- they're gonna look sooooooo at first but it's something i haven't done yet so i think it'll really help

open.spotify.com/track/7aLtFO... i love this song so much... this is really how i feel whenever i'm drawing and i'm really engrossed in it, at my happiest, all bubbly and stuff, i really get this feeling lol

Bubbly

Good Kid · Bubbly · Song · 2024

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drawing something so freaking beautiful and not letting anyone see it for nearly 2 months is the equivalent of torture it seems?!!? patience is a virtue 😵😵‍💫

i've been drawing so many handsome loids and pretty yors, my heart can't take it 😍

test print 🥹

find-your-chiikawa.netlify.app testmoa.com/chiikawa/ mine are so accurate!! 😭 now i can't wait to watch it?? LOL

i'm gonna pretend it's all cold and windy so i get an excuse to draw loid and yor with pretty hair and blushing cheeks 😗

☕️ just now, i could tell my tolerance for caffeine increased, which is not surprising, was warranted, but definitely not desired urgh! 😭 i'm so sensitive because coffee and energy drinks scare me, so i might have a period where i sleep a lot LOL. i'm too hyper-aware of the science to keep this up 😭