I know who I was, but I want to feel what it's like to be him. But I can't. I just can't. ...
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I'd really like to get over whatever this sickness is that I've had. I'm feeling so lousy. But it's supposed to go away. I mean, that's the assumption. I've been sleeping most of my days. Then I go to work. I have to do more than that though. Life dictates. But I am le tired.
Old friends stop talking to me, and I wonder why. Old friends die. My heart. Hurts. I'm just so tired.
I'm in a ... place lately. And I'm not sure what to do. I'm tired. I don't feel hope so much. I just feel empty. Like this is my life. I had dreams. Just grinding away for other people wasn't one. I want to write. I want to take photos. I want to dream. I want to live. Instead, I just see time pass.
Hank Green touches on it a bit here. "Vibe" coding is such a sham. It's not the democratization of coding anymore than AI art is the democratization of art. It's skipping the learning a skill part. Enshitification at its finest. Just ask Microsoft. Do better, humanity www.youtube.com/watch?v=dT5I...
What is "Slop" (and why it gives me hope)
YouTube video by vlogbrothers
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I sometimes wonder which fox from works of fiction is my favorite. Perhaps from "The Chronicles of Narnia," as he was wondrous & brave, with a heart so big you wanted to hug him. Then, of course, there's our sweet Robin. More recently, from "The Boy, the Mole, the Fox and the Horse." All were kind.
I'm just going to put this out here. youtu.be/Gw7gNf_9njs?...
The Chicks - Goodbye Earl (Official Video)
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I don't think I believe in people anymore. I've lost all faith.
"The woods are lovely, dark and deep, But I have promises to keep, And miles to go before I sleep, And miles to go before I sleep." I do so wish I could sleep. But the anxiety is strong and loneliness all encompassing. The older you get the more alone you feel. And hope all the frailer.
Nature can be merciless, harsh, and cruel. But humans have the capacity for empathy, kindness, and consideration. They just choose otherwise.
I'm so tired. It's wild. I feel tireder and tireder. I was told I mask well, but I can't keep this up forever. I've seen doctors for it. They're like, "Have you tried sleeping?" O.o Sleep clinic was like "try a dental device" to breath. Doesn't work. So... Grumpy snep. Fun. Glitchy from exhaustion.
I'm faltering. It's okay. OCD is just overwhelming me. Little by little. Day by day. I feel it whittling away my ability to handle life. I'm trying. Always trying. It's rather hard. Anyone who has OCD, I empathize. It's beyond words or explanation. Desperation. Sadness. But we go on. #OCD
I was going through old files and came across this. @fieldofreeds.bsky.social did this for me back in the day. I can't believe I found it. It's such a blast from the past. Very fitting for the season. Wintry. Merry Christmas early, everyone!
I am now a flea courtesy @tartii.com. Thanks so much! Everyone, go give them love!
Tartii | 🐱 Megaplex 2026!@tartii.com · 11mo agoOOPS I FORGOT TO SHARE!! But yesterday I drew two new fleas from chat!! I do little freebies for my subs every 25 subs and it's been a LOT of fun so far!!
I was going through old pics and came across this from years ago by @aspeneyes.bsky.social. Does anyone else remember this? I like the vibe. It fits somehow. Though I still don't know why everyone draws me with black ears. ^.^;; Shout out to the artist. I know this is ancient, but I like it still!
I go to get a piece of several-day-old birthday cake. only to find it has mold on it. :-( That's the crown on things alright. Lame. It was super cheap Walmart cake at that. Meh. And yuck. Ah well. Next year, I buy a bakery cake. *Sigh.*
Last night while at work, I found out my grandmother died yesterday.
Some days are just lousy. And now I get to try for 5 hours of sleep before work. Yippee ki-yay, space cowboy.
