Suzuca ☂️🍃

@itssuzuca.bsky.social

💚 𝘝𝘰𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵 & 𝘝𝘪𝘴𝘶𝘢𝘭 𝘈𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘴𝘵 (she/they) 💜 streaming on Twitch: https://twitch.tv/itssuzuca 💚 art tag: #suzucanvas 💜 ENG/日本語OK 💚 https://suzuca.carrd.co/ i+h: by me

man im fking going thru it emotionally right now!! not in a bad way, in a sentimental way. in a studio ghibli movie everything is beautiful and emotional and sad kinda way!!! bro i just wanna quit my job and work on music stuff for the rest of my life.

one of the most unexpected things that boshi said to me once is that she thought i was putting on a sultry voice on purpose for stream. do i really sound sultry?? i guess only old viewers would know because i think i picked up boshi's high energy over the years, so i'm a lot less cozy than before

i’ve been having really bad insomnia for about a week. i’m not sleeping some nights and others i only sleep 2-4h. i’ve been going to work and working on projects despite feeling dead all the time. i have zero appetite and don’t notice i haven’t eaten in a day or almost two. what is going on

my AC is broken and i can't be bothered to deal with repairs. but it's so hot omg... it's annoying af cause i always need to move my PC and singing setup (my entire desk essentially) out of the way, or else they can't work on the AC. i don't wannaaaaa

i've avoided blender long enough, it's time to finally learn it. but at the same time i'm way too busy to learn a new skill. but i also know that in the end i just choose to suffer and do it anyway

most of the time, my dayjob isn't the most stressful in the world. but honestly i wish i could just spend all day creating art, making music videos and other content, instead. stability really has me in a tight chokehold though

in 2026, i want to go back to the basics and close any gaps that i have when it comes to art. although i manage to produce a good enough looking illustration when i just keep fixing it until i‘m happy, the process is slow and flawed. gonna be posting a lot studies this year!

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as a streamer, i dodge political topics and hold my tongue to keep the vibes positive and give people a safe space to escape and take a break from all the crazy in the world. but lately it’s been getting hard to bottle it all up. this morning i cried a lot. i feel powerless.

i finally played limbus company canto 1 and i'm so invested. i heard that the first cantos can't even be compared to the peak of the later ones. but i'm so hyped and happy i started getting into the project moon franchise. (lobcorp progress is at day 46, so close! maybe??)

everyone, check out soarer's GOATED cover of UtsuP's song "Vulgar" now!!🚗☁️ youtu.be/rqyQw36z8ko i created the custom art used in the MV, based on @/shiro_iku_'s original artwork for "Vulgar". it was extremely challenging, but also one of the most fun things i've ever drawn! thanks for having me!

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