quite frankly i would rather spiral into dark thoughts and rot away until there's nothing left than use chatGPT to talk about my feelings with

remembering i've still got chores to do but i just can't bring myself to do them. i wish i could just skip them and not have to think about it.

FFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-- #mariokartworld

feeling on the verge of a panic attack every time i hear even the slightest noise above me because i feel like neighbourzilla's about to rampage. maybe i should just bury myself under a bunch of blankets as a precaution..

been told to journal my emotions when stuff gets bad but what good does that even do, like genuinely?

bleh.. can't sleep

wondering if to go to sleep or start a drawing i have an idea for before that idea disappears into the void..

you know things are bad when the one who hates physical contact needs a hug. couldn't be me, right?

i know i said i'd try and ignore neighbourzilla, but i really hope they just so happen to step on several lego pieces during their next rampage. that'll hopefully teach them when it comes to stomping.

boned 💀 #mariokartworld

new coping strategy unlocked for when doing a chore that's difficult. set a playlist to shuffle and play a game of "name that tune" with myself.

decided to just deal with my noisy neighbours by silently bearing it and doing absolutely nothing. i guess all i can do with stuff like this is just try to ignore it as best i can.

having an urge to play some clangen again. might draw some cats that i think are interesting.

explain your lore as badly as possible [ERROR: LORE NOT FOUND] (mostly because i genuinely can't think of anything)

SPOOKYShadz@solvershadz.bsky.social · 4d ago

explain your lore as badly as possible disassembly drone who is also an octoling but also not really an octoling

i should really consider making a start on putting up my halloween decorations but i can't be arsed rn even though i'd usually want to do it. i guess it's a thing i could do little by little over the next couple of weeks..

couldn't decide what the household name would be, so i just went with both lmao #tomodachilifelivingthedream

really wishing i wasn't such a downer all the time. i wish i knew how people can stay positive despite things happening with no breaks.

omg what took you so long? #tomodachilifelivingthedream

hoping stuff calms down enough for me to draw a bit more instead of having to rush and force myself to do it

just woke up with a gallstone pain flare-up. thanks, life.. 🫩🫩🫩🫩

am i capable? cooking: questionable whistle: i guess..? draw: yeah, but only when i feel like it swim: i did it a lot when i was a kid, so yeah english: yes sing: can, but too shy drive: oh hell no gifting: when i can, yes write: i probably could guitar: have one, don't play it much speaking: ok

SPOOKYShadz@solvershadz.bsky.social · last wk.

Am I capable? Cooking: i can't cook Whistle: *Whistles SMB1 Overworld* Draw: mspaint.exe is loading... Swim: Does floating count? English: I mean... it's my only language. Sing: yes but it hurts Drive: not yet Gifting: art is gift Write: uhhhh Guitar: does a midi guitar count Speaking: HAIIIII

hearing about this plague thing is not doing my already spiralling mental health and rapidly declining will to live any favours, tbh.

kinda wish i had something i know i can genuinely look forward to, ngl.

i used to think that suffering would eventually build character, but wtf is going on anymore?

i lowkey want to shove these julie bots into a meat grinder

knowing that i have my flu shot due in a couple weeks is giving me horrible flashbacks to when i had to get a bunch of blood tests done earlier this year. i hate injections so much even though i know i gotta get them done..

just watched the latest spooky month episode

absolute cinema

Alt: absolute cinema

static.klipy.com

i guess it's cool i've now got 100 followers, but the fact a few of them were bots makes me kinda mad.

begone, bot

despite being a pokemon violet player, i prefer the past paradox pokemon. (and yes, i was one of those kids that had a really intense dinosaur phase)