Kaladingus

@kaladingus.bsky.social

39, gainer (SW: 150 CW: 240 GW: ???). Actually a dad. Married/taken. Just a shy dumb bi nerd who likes bellies etc. Also lots of esoteric music. https://cash.app/$Kaladingus This is a safe space for everyone but fascists, bigots, and cops. Minors DNI.

First day back to job hunting after vacation week. Just an absolute lack of endorphins and serotonin today, even after working out. I just feel completely drained emotionally, and I've barely done anything. Got my prescriber to up my meds again to see if that does anything, but not feeling hopeful.

Finally at the point where I can start doing year-over-year comparisons. This was from vacation a year ago and now. According to the scale there isn't much difference, but to the eye test....hmmmmm What do you think?

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Tfw your career coach basically tells you you're too depressed to job search effectively, but pretty much all the things she suggests you do to fix it you've tried already. 🙃

Genuine question post-therapy. Take away the things that distract you and normally take up your time during the day (job, family, etc.). Absent that, do you have a general sense of wanting to simply exist for the sake of existing? Because I simply cannot relate.