Kelth Hyena

@kelthhyena.bsky.social

New Jersey Hyena. Smells great! ❌Minors DNI❌ 18+ only plz 38 pan cis-m queer othrovert Probably an llm with a tail Phenomenology 💕 Furry 🐾 Otherness ✨

Interested to visit my Uncle at the end of this month, he owns 12 books on deciding secret bible codes! I’ll also get to see my cousin who has 10 children! It’s just different in the Midwest don’t cha know.

I looked around at the environments I spent my con time in and it was mostly filled with dudes, but I saw lots of women at the con. I bet women have a whole different con experience, I wonder what that’s like.

My weekend at Furrydelphia was ok, the con is great don’t get me wrong, I just didn’t spend my time well. But I like not having a good time because the experience shows me what I need to correct and I know a direction to make my next con great!

I think I need to change what I do at cons, I’m not interested in getting fucked up at room parties. I kinda just want to chat and explore identity and ideas with animals. Vibe and listen to music in a room with places to sit. A different pace perhaps.

I worry sometimes about being perceived as standoffish, or unfriendly. I’m a pretty aloof person and I very rarely feel like I belong so I suppose it’s natural for some to interpret that as my attitude towards them, rather than what it is, an internal attitude on myself. Aka it’s not you, it’s me.

I’m at #furrydelphia! I love this con and I’m excited to get in suit later. It’s weird but whenever I’m in a hotel now I get a strong urge to work, I think I’ll channel that into a bit of journaling, then brunch, reg, dealers, then suiting!!!!

It would be absolutely great if I could be unconcious while asleep again instead of this thing where I’m conscious and aware while asleep. I get like 3-4hrs of sleep then I lay there functionally awake for another couple of hours before giving up and getting out of bed.

It’s great seeing old friends! What a pleasure it is to know people over the span of years and connect when things align, however briefly. It’s amazing to be in a world of people!

Sometimes it’s difficult to know what to do. For some choices in life there just aren’t any heuristics, no amount of research or study will give you a method by which to make a decision. These are the toughest ones. I wish that advise could be given, but by it’s very nature: there are no solutions,

ADHD + Autism + hyperlexia is a winning combination let me tell you because I can very competently tell you what it feels like to struggle to accomplish anything because I’m so aware of the experience of cat herding myself.

I love the writing I’m doing for the show I’m working towards. I think I want to be vlogging along side it, both non-furry and a separate furry thing. I want to find the optimal way to compose everything but I wonder if I need to overcome this autistic compulsion and just start posting anything.

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I’m interested in who other people are, and so I love asking questions to catch glimpses of identity. However, I’ve learnt that not everyone is interested in others like I am; so I generally don’t provide a reply to my own questions. I wonder how people interpret that?

Stopped by a book store to look for something and ended up browsing the poetry section. I really need to give Bukowski some love, I bet he’d like that … even though I’m a guy. A beautiful poem ~


society should realize..

you consult psychiatrists and philosophers when things aren't going well
 and whores when they are.
the whores are there for young boys and old men; to the young boys they say,
"don't be frightened, honey, here I'll put it in for you."
and for the old guys 
they put on an act 
like you're really hooking it home. 
society should realize the value of the whore-I mean, those girls who really enjoy their 
work-those who make it almost an 
art form.

I'm thinking of the time 
in a Mexican whorehouse
this gal with her little bowl and her rag washing my dick,
and it got hard and she laughed and I laughed and she
kissed it, gently and slowly, then she walked over and 
spread out 
on the bed
and I got on and we worked easily, no effort, no tension, and some guy beat on the door and 
yelled,
"Hey! what the hell's going on in there?
Hurry it up!"
but it was like a Mahler symphony - you just don't 
rush 
it.

My sensibilities aren’t often offended, but I’m deeply disturbed by this.  Deeply angry and sad, information is what humans make, it’s what we gift forward to future generations. The wanton destruction of books without the preservation for Others to enjoy is plainly terrible.

Dr. Jeroen W.P. Wijnendaele@drdragases.bsky.social · 2w ago

No longer content with pillaging intellectual work and dismembering our environment (already critically weakened), AI companies are now hellbent on destroying books galore including rare editions. Shut down these nefarious enterprises already.