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I am at war with myself. Specifically the idiot that wakes up first every morning. Wake up and get some tea or something don't you dare lie back down motherfu-
Does the anxiety go down or do I gotta fuck myself up some other way to offset?
I might be doomposting and revealing a media blind spot with this but... I feel like, in terms of online first person shooter games, the art of making it fun to be cannon-fodder has either been lost or abandoned.
Mina the Hollower doin a lil dance Song: At Last We Rest (Old Graveyard) by Jake Kaufman
Please let me sleep tonight, I was making progress and I don't want to get held back by another week of insomnia...
Goddamn it where the fuck are private accounts With the amount of vent I've got in these drafts you'd think me HVAC certified
Whoops forgot step 4 in the 5 step sleep preparation process. Guess no sleep for you. orz
Don't get good at suppressing rage when you're told not to feel it. Process and understand it, then move on. If you can't understand it, leave no stone unturned. If you're not allowed to process it, then find who's not letting you, and try to make the explosion a bright one.
I don't think I want to talk anymore, not for a while. Maybe for a month or two. Progress being made, hurts to acknowledge, leaves me more stranded, but it's good. I just need to find a way to make it work. Too much shame and fear.
Potentially stuck in the cycles of grief. Not in E.Y.E. either, unfortunately. I should try that one out again...
Evidence continues to suggest that the next stage of treatment requires a hard reset.
