tuesday light me up

Freckle Fan

ALT: Freckle Fan

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i'm finally playing house flipper 2 again! this time i am starting a renovation of my house!! it's definitely in need!!! watch the full 2 hr video here: youtu.be/_Er_Wjp5QOk #houseflipper #houseflipper2

Decided I’m getting a job. Once I do, videos will probably be a once a week thing, if that. I’m so tired of worrying about food.

I’m constantly stressed about whether being a content creator will be enough to live on. It’s barely cutting it at the moment and it’s making me literally sick.

so proud of myself for starting medication. i was TERRIFIED to start due to bad experiences/trauma but I finally took to jump and did it. my psychiatrist is also a genuinely nice and understanding person so it made it so much easier too.

ugh day 3 of starting medication for adhd and i'm SLEEPY

help why does my sims 3 baby look like this?!?!?

god my gender confuses me sometimes. sometimes i'm fine how i am, being masc and how i've always been. but then i see trans folks out there being femme and it...makes me feel things i like don't want to open up or process because it is scary.

i'm gonna lose my mind if i see one more ai thumbnail on youtube. STOP IT.

The way people have just normalized using ai to create things that took creative folks years to learn and fail and grow to make, it enrages me. I don’t care what you’re using AI for. Stop. It’s not that important. I’m so disappointed in people.

it is very disappointing to seeing simmers and other content creators using AI to make their channel art and thumbnails.

All these gay romances I’m reading have me in a STATE I tell ya!!

Pedro Pascal Happy Sad

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an extra futbol luce

My reading this morning was like HEY LISTEN UP like 5 majors in a row. #tarot

been watching a lot of soccer

I honestly don’t know how I’m going to afford rent or groceries at this point. I’m literally so stressed my UC is starting to flare again. I don’t know if I can handle this stress anymore.

being a content creator is pouring your heart and soul into something, being super proud of the results, only for it to flop algorithmically and just set your channel behind even more. i SO badly have no idea what I am doing. i need to brainstorm some more interesting videos it seems.

new speed build is up on the channel! building another realistic midwest styled home for my save file! youtu.be/a1qbCSbxp6c

yas!!! i am SO happy for their success!!! i am so excited for this future of this game!!

Paralives@paralives.com · 2mo ago

1,000,000 COPIES SOLD 🎉🎉 we’re incredibly grateful for all of your support, reviews, and feedback this past month! thank you a million times ❤️

i built an off the grid tiny house in the sims 4!! #thesims #thesims4 #sims4 watch the speed build here: youtu.be/_oyprp6uTuQ

i renovated the starter home in glimmerbrook *again* but this time i used base game and realm of magic only!! youtu.be/erAKdRcVBUQ #thesims #thesims #sims4

fixing The Sims 4 Realm of Magic's UGLY starter home

YouTube video by Lucca

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i have to find a job since i am on the verge of losing my car. things are getting tight and the channel is ~not~ doing well and its frustratinggg

Paralives is wonderful! It's also in early access! Folks are disappointed it won't replace the sims just yet, but give it time! It's going to grow into something even better!!

I finally took the time to play some personal gameplay in the sims 4. Made a family in a new save and played for hours today! The game got stuck on a loading screen and I hadn’t saved in an hour or so.

Classic Woman in Coat Posing

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Heartstopper Forever *IS* going to destroy me in the best way because why am I CRYING at just the trailer?

I swear there are commenters who really think they can just say anything to me or be overly critical of things like it matters that much. My building skills aren’t the best but they don’t need to appease everyone.

one thing i have learned is you can't chase creativity. it comes and goes when it wants, all you can do is take care of yourself and relax when its gone. it comes back.

My recent post of my channel. Just some thoughts I'm having and what to expect.

i think i need to step back and reevaluate what kind of videos i want to make and also what videos to keep my channel relevant and growing. It's really hard finding that balance in my current state honestly.