Maybe it's not me. Maybe time really is going too fast to get anything done. I still feel like I have to rush through everything, even relaxing. Though tbh, I don't think I've been able to relax in years now :/
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Gaming, drawing, cats and coffee <3 No Ai. Art: https://www.deviantart.com/sarakpn
Unpopular opinion: I don't get what's so special about cinnamon. In my country, it's specifically used in "speculaas", basically a soft or hard cinnamon biscuit. Not really a fan of it. Much rather have peanut and chocolate.
You know, having your hormones do a 180 every month doesn't help all the other neurodivergent bullshit going on! I know I'm not the only female feeling this!
Conundrum: Thinking can block you from doing, but only doing can get it out of your head so you can stop thinking about it. What kind of magic do I need to do to achieve this?
I LOVE "Doom The Dark Ages". It has a serious story and believable world, yet isn't limited by "real world realism". It's art. It still prioritizes the fact it's a game and I love that. Devil May Cry gives that same feeling to me. Believable, but still fun and over the top.
I thought of getting rid of the stove that came with the house. Then I though: maybe it's handy for when power goes out and not rely on the grid. Then I noticed the plug 😂 Like, what's the point of an electric stove?
They're coming out of the walls now! Is that a face?! 💀👻 Entry 15/24 of Joseph Schreiber's Red Diary from #SilentHill4.
Fighting ghosts with wooden swords... Is this a child's fantasy? Entry 14/24 of Joseph Schreiber's Red Diary from #SilentHill4.
Did I mention the door has been chained shut, from the inside? Yes, BEFORE the hole appeared... Entry 13/24 of Joseph Schreiber's Red Diary from #SilentHill4.
I know Halloween isn't an official holiday here, but damn... not a single house in my new neighborhood has any decorations. At least all the pastures give some good morning fog.
Here I am slaving away and destroying myself at a dayjob, meanwhile there's some guy using Ai bots to design and sell digital merch on etsy for 35k a month. What am I doing?
They say boredom, not focus, is the birthplace of ideas, as it allows the brain to wander. Would explain why all my best ideas come to me at work, lol.
I blocked off the hole, but it keeps opening up again... What are those sounds?! Entry 12/24 of Joseph Schreiber's Red Diary from #SilentHill4.
The current El Niño is now even stronger than the one from 1877. This tells me that even back in 1877, people didn't recycle their plastics enough and cows farted too much. Yes, that was sarcasm, in case you suffer from brainrot.
Almost thought I wouldn't get a note today... Entry 11/24 of Joseph Schreiber's Red Diary from #SilentHill4.
Dude, Eva Greene's make-up is always such a vibe. She has a natural goth-girl to her. I may take notes, because her eyebrows are close to her eyes with limited space inbetween, just like mine.
Looking at past super El Niño patterns to predict what lies ahead, in case you want to prepare. www.youtube.com/watch?v=USOh...
We Checked Every Super El Niño Winter Since 1950. Here's What Happens
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Some of these notes are falling apart... Entry 9/24 of Joseph Schreiber's Red Diary from #SilentHill4.
Trying to figure out how to do stuff while perpetually tired, no energy and a dopamine malfunction. I genuinely feel like I've seen enough, heard enough and felt enough at this point and I should retire. Like I spent my life's energy twice as fast out of necessity. Just mentally tired.
How I arrive at my night shift job when feeling the Halloween vibe... www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Ecs...
Death's Intro... Supernatural S5E21
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Not me buying a dozen milkshakes and bags of chips 'n dip at the grocery store, pretending I have kids.
I think I hear voices coming from the hole... Entry 8/24 of Joseph Schreiber's Red Diary from #SilentHill4.
I bought store brand nacho chip, the plain ones for dip, and they have literally 3 ingredients: corn flour, sunflower oil and salt. That's it. Compared to Doritos which makes me feel I need a masters at chemistry to know what I'm eating. Yeah, I'm substituting with store brands.
These red notes appear every day now. Ever since that hole in my bathroom appeared... Strange... It shouldn't be that deep... Entry 7/24 of Joseph Schreiber's Red Diary from #SilentHill4.
