ugh this is a terrible night for a spiral i’m supposed to go to the pumpkin patch in the morning
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the game is not worth the candle she/her instagram.com/sh.idequests
maybe also because i don’t hate my neighbor either i hate the structures in place that encouraged that behavior because he was a child too
the cheating and being assaulted by my neighbor oddly fall low on the trauma history ladder somehow the reemergence of both those memories in my 20s felt worse than when they actually happened
but now me at my big grown age knows something in the house is different so sleep will not happen tonight
also there’s a free bed in the coldest room in the house tonight i should take it
but they’ve never slept separately and they are tonight and i told them both i want nothing to do with it but i am SO NOSY i do actually want to know
anyway every so often she accuses my dad of talking to other women or bringing up something from when they dated as teenagers that’s ancient history or something along those lines so i guess it must have happened at some point today
it’s definitely the event that pushed her toward the church but my sister coming out was somehow a far worse event that had them full force in the trenches (pews)
her cheating on my dad as a kid is just like a little blip in the grand scheme of our family and honestly i forgot about it until my mid 20s
my mom is your typical textbook narcissist parent and it’s a little annoying how unoriginal she is
ugh see i need to word vomit so I need a place for it if it’s not gonna be here
How many of you have the vision really? I need more of you to have the vision. Let's all have the vision together
white people - forget sunscreen, fight off wrinkles by confronting your internalized racism on a daily basis!
i kinda miss lurking but also this has been a really unintentional but solid journaling experience which i guess is what it was meant to be
the new pjs also i don’t think i’ll vanish overnight it might be gradual or it might be a delete and restart idk
i took a mirror selfie of my newest pjs like “oh no i can’t post that” but i guess past me didn’t give a shit
dead disney movie moms were a cry for help they were a metaphor for male loneliness even back then
stacey in the babysitters club was tripping because that magician was so fine and definitely more appropriately aged for her