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@melonlemon.bsky.social
the game is not worth the candle she/her instagram.com/sh.idequests
i am not dramatizing when i say i’m living in a nightmare right now
i can very much see how people check themselves into a facility right about now
do you know what teaching feels like the day after a mass shooting?
god another shooting at an elementary school and we’re not even talking about it
ugh this is a terrible night for a spiral i’m supposed to go to the pumpkin patch in the morning
maybe also because i don’t hate my neighbor either i hate the structures in place that encouraged that behavior because he was a child too
the cheating and being assaulted by my neighbor oddly fall low on the trauma history ladder somehow the reemergence of both those memories in my 20s felt worse than when they actually happened
but now me at my big grown age knows something in the house is different so sleep will not happen tonight
also there’s a free bed in the coldest room in the house tonight i should take it
but they’ve never slept separately and they are tonight and i told them both i want nothing to do with it but i am SO NOSY i do actually want to know
anyway every so often she accuses my dad of talking to other women or bringing up something from when they dated as teenagers that’s ancient history or something along those lines so i guess it must have happened at some point today