beck

@mendhell.bsky.social

like the beer or the band but absolutely not on call

i got like some sorta viral sore throat thing and i’ve been Sleeping So Much and almost every time i wake up i enter a pokemon card raffle of some sort im just scared im gonna wake up sometime soon to like 4 charged on my card 💀💀 the last one im trying is the one at 5pm today i set an alarm

overhearing someone call me “very pretty” is always so silly because i don’t think i was called pretty until i was like over twenty and it’s like if i knew sooner maybe id feel less like i was larping being a woman

so i wrote a sestina this afternoon. felt compelled. i’m sweating now. tbh i found 6 lines in my phone notes and made it work for better or worse. i may have messed up, but that’s whatever. my grandma liked it. #poetry

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english is such a weird language because yes, there are rules that make sense, but most of these rules do have exceptions. sure, one may weigh in with the historical roots to find the “why”, but i like the idea of it all being some sort of lofty metaphor for acceptance. accept the exceptions.

the birds outside were being really loud a few weeks back, so i looked up some noises to play to get them away from my window…lo and behold i’ve now pissed off a chipmunk and i’m this 🤌 close to developing an elmer fudd/bugs back and forth with the thing and i am (devastatingly) Not Bugs

recently was diagnosed with cptsd which is fine because i figured i had it and naming the beast is good because i can see a behavior and realize where it’s coming from, but also i’m an impatient person and get frustrated when naming the beast isn’t enough to feel alright some days

i understand leaving reviews is important for business but also 3 messages to leave one is kinda crazy i’ll get to it man, but you’re irking me

saw a post that was like “here’s a picture of a whale’s eye in hd” and everyone’s losing their minds at it or whatever and all i’m saying is, read moby dick

was talking to my friend about my fear of bugs and she asked “is it really that bad?” and i had to explain that when i was holding a ladder up for her when we were doing yard work my face was too close to the ground and i saw too many bugs, so i shut my eyes and sang two (2) mayday parade songs