ｍｉｄｎｉｇｈｔ ｍｉｌｅｓ（夜中）
@midnightmilesad.bsky.social
⌈ dob for verification of age: 04/27/2004 ⌋ "Private" AD Account of @studiomiles.newgrounds.com/ @rotundmiles.newgrounds.com. True Unfiltered Feelings will come up here for those who I trust
Heya all. So I've been thinking about this for a while, and I decided to give this account a bit of a rebrand. It's not gonna be primarly a venting account anymore (hopefully), but more so, just a place to talk about human things, both real and weird. So uh, here's to a fresh new start.
the sertraline seems to be working. maybe. i just need to sleep properly.
I am completely obliterated from twitter. All 3 accounts Suspended. I wish I could leave social media, but I need comms, and at the very least people are active here. So I guess I could be healing
my application for SSI has been denied. i will be opening up commissions again. is there no hope for me anymore? can I not be able to help myself anymore? can i not be able to help anyone anymore..?
what i want to make feels like a bunch of empty promises.
im tired of everything... i need... help... any...
im not fit to be what i want to be. im a failiure, no matter what other people say.
im scared of telling my feelings. those feelings will make them hurt.
im scared of searching for help. they'll think im crazy and send me away.
i need to do something to myself. so that i may never feel this way again.
im so fucking depressed i can't cheer myself up.
i'll never be able to do anything like them...
my feelings have anger. if i release that anger, i will hurt my friends. i can't...
im not impressive. i try to stand out, but others are too good for me to catch up.
i want to cancel them. i want to cancel my projects. nobody seems to want to help me, or even be interested. the fire is weakening by the moment.
