can anyone help me get an uber so i can get home today 😭 i’m stuck at my job but need to leave early but my pay doesn’t come in until later today so i am quite literally stuck for the next couple hours. $15 should be enough, please help me get home 💀 ko-fi.com/ellieannee

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everything that happened is starting to hit me

i greened out for the first time in a very long time and i think i’m going to be traumatized for a few days

ruri@miyukicats.bsky.social · 3d ago

at my lowest

at my lowest

noise rock but it’s actually just regular rock bc all music is noise

i miss listening to shoegaze

i need to kill myself

i need to accept i won’t be able to engage in the things i love/enjoy as often as i’d like anymore and that i shouldn’t compare myself to others who can beat a game or two within just a week

i miss my girlfriend i’m working 11 hours everyday until monday i’m so sad and cooked

i feel so anxious today help

i’m so sad i’m going to be overworked to hell these next couple of days i’m not looking forward to it one bit 😭

uuuuu i miss tokyo so much 💔 i remember staying in eastern shinjuku with some friends and this was the view we had while spy x family was airing on the tv lol good times

thank god this place hasnt been 'discovered' yet

not doing good at all my paranoia ocd anxiety and everything is heightened up but i’m trying to distract myself with weed as per usual

my head is a fucking mess today

all my pre-transition memories make me wanna die inside

there’s this guy who i knew in japan from the same language school as me who blew up doing instagram reels about his life and has 86k followers now and i think i hold too much power over him bc i could cancel him if i wanted to. well not really but he DID make me really uncomfortable

thc gummies are horrid they taste awful but nothing beats an edible high

i used to be into niche music and shit like a true loser but ever since tiktok popularized what i liked i haven’t really listened to much of anything in the past 2-3 years lol

i’m going to fight demons today. i might lose a part of myself in the process, but watch me win anyway

i love ellie and you should love her too

i want to try doing things that make me happy again

need to buy that $250 one way ticket from lax to narita

i’ve felt like shit physically for the past two weeks or so when will i finally feel better. i feel like i’m going crazy i don’t even sleep well at night i wake up at least 8 or 10 times throughout the night and i feel like i’m going to faint from doing any sort of arduous work i can’t go on like th

i feel really sad

life is so cruel

i don’t feel like i relate to anyone or fit in anywhere and while I’ve mostly gotten used to it its been pretty lonely

yeah i don’t want to beg for money or have to borrow from people ever again

I know we've been ebegging for a lot of pointless stuff lately but on a serious note I've been dirt broke for a good while now and could really use a little bit just for basic things if anyone could spare anything. sorry. ko-fi.com/kiwijuu

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i haven’t really gotten anything since making this post and today is the very last day. all i need is $100. please repost if you can this is urgent. i promise i won’t bother with a post like this again. thank you and i’m sorry ko-fi.com/ellieannee

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ruri@miyukicats.bsky.social · 2w ago

sorry for bumping this (again), but we just need $300 more now. i can probably make up some of it on my own but as for the rest any help is really appreciated, thank you to everyone who’s helped us already, things are starting to look up