MoonlitCoyote
@moonlitcoyote.bsky.social
Moonlit. Wildlife & Fantasy Artist. Dabbler in many mediums. BFA from SAIC. Paints way too many coyotes.
Okay, I have clearly pissed off the universe and I am paying for my transgressions… Came in from babysitting my corgi nephew and Ruby smashed my pinky all the way back… so it’s either broken or badly strained… So I’ve taped it to my ring finger… cause that’s all the er will do too! Wheeeee
Anyway- I’m back home now, still fuming and just so god damn tired of “you’re being sensitive” or “what’s your problem.” I’m dealing with a chronic issue that causes pain if I eat wrong and asking for grace and a little consideration is apparently too fucking much. That’s my fucking problem.
And the rage continues… I don’t know how many times I’ve said “DO NOT SEASON MY FOOD” When people make stuff… Fucking ignored. Like?? YES THAT MEANS DO NOT ADD SALT OR PEPPER TO MY SHIT MOM.
So fucking mad at my father right now. As you know, I can only eat certain things, ans bland things at that, because of my current stomach situation. He knows this. He brings fucking Pakora. “You won’t be mad will you?” I can’t fucking eat it. Of course I’m fucking mad.
Doctors appointment was meh. BP was good. Yay. Doing a Holter Test at some point since I keep having heart flutters/palpitations and waking up mid night. Stomach is stay the course. Had a bunch of skin tags removed. Ow.
Been up since 1:10 am (it’s 1:40 ish am) feeling like my heart is going to explode out of my chest… Because why?? No clue. I’m tired. So tired. I know it’s hormone related, but I would like it to stop. Like yesterday…
We’re still playing the game “Am I allergic to my new med?” “Is it just seasonal allergies” “Is it LPR?” “Is it just a post nasal drip cause of GERD?” “Is it just globus sensation?” “DO I HAVE AN UNKNOWKN FOOD SENSITIVITY?” I honestly cannot tell anymore. I have all my tests the 21st.
Today I learned that another annoying symptom of perimenopause is the opposite of hot flashes… ie COLD FLASHES. I’m sitting in a 73°F house, with a hoodie, thick t-shirt, and thick pj pants on and I’m having bouts of shivering. I do not like this at all.
Are we adding a mammogram to my list of upcoming tests? Probably. Because my body is REALLY REALLY pulling out all the stops, and given my age and family history? Not surprised. Never fuck around with armpit pain or weird boobie lumps. It’s probably fine. Could be my hormone med too!
Anyone ever tried one of those Vegas Nerve Stimulator devices? A friend sent me a link to one since all my anxiety/dread is at night (perimenopause of course) and while I will clear it with my doc before I buy anything- I just was curious!
Welp- I am now on allergy watch for the new med. I got tingly lips and they’re cherry red after my second dose. Could be a coincidence though, so not ready to throw in the towel yet. Thankfully my BP seems stable (and where we want it).
Pfft. My lipase (pancreas values) are up since my last test. Likely my stomach med (PPI) is the cause, but still in normal levels. Took my additional stomach med today(it’s for ulcers) and boy howdy is it an absolute bear to take. But it’s supposed to coat the stomach and put a barrier in place…
Got 3 more tests booked to rule out gall bladder, pancreas, and heart (yay stress test) and then the GI happens. New med to add to coat the stomach, which will be a schedule nightmare for my current med. Aaaand my bp med is going away for now.
Have a call with my doc at 3 pm today because I reached out this morn after yesterday and last night… last night was the same level of BS right before one of the ER visits… Chest pains suck- I know a stress test is imminent, despite everything being good there in tests so far.
Stomach has been an absolute nightmare today, to the point it’s doing the stupid referred pain again and the frozen shoulder isn’t helping at all either. And I can’t take my breakthrough meds till 9:30 pm because my hormone med is at 7:30. I hate feeling like this.
Anyone on my feed know of any artists who have plus sized witch themed tees? Sarcastic witchy commentary or lunar themes would be a bonus! I need some oversized comfy witchy stuff for the season and I’d rather throw my money at fellow artists instead of generated slop!
I’m so god damn frustrated with Amazon. Had to ultimately chancel the order- they don’t know where it is either. So now I have to wait 3-5 days to get my money back to reorder the same stuff… I suppose I should try shipping it to my mom and see if it’s my name that’s causing the issue.
I have an Amazon package in purgatory for the second time in a month… (never got the first one). I don’t order stuff off Amazon often (do have prime), but it’s things I need to ship OR I have to drive 3 hours to get cause no one stocks it local. Other prime packages have shown up though!
Nothing like finding out 2 of your meds are on a recently published list because they deplete B1 (thiamine). One I may be coming off anyway, but the other I’ll be on for a while. I’m already watching my electrolytes, magnesium, b12, calcium and kidney values… Like wtf?
Wooo! My BP is on the tank again. The joy of stupid heavy cycles and blood loss. I cannot wait for my hormone med to do it’s thing and stop this for good. So today is a no BP med kinda day.
Magnus’ Blasto test came back Negative. Thank the universe. So upper respiratory infection- that if we don’t see improvement/less panting Monday? We’ll get him back in For further testing.
Ruby has an infection, probably from a sting or spider bite. We have meds for her and if it doesn’t start to improve by Saturday morn we go back and the vet will drain it… :/ it’s in a terrible spot so the hope is it’ll go down with antibiotics. Chaos. This week has been chaos.
Round two- Ruby has to go to the vet tomorrow. Looks like a spider may have bit her on her paw. -screams-
Reached out to my doc online because my stomach discomfort/esophagus discomfort isn’t going away even on the high powered PPI. It feels like my gut isn’t moving at all and I do not have breakthrough heartburn or anything. It’s also not my hormone med cause this started before it.
So, we’re looking at either Blasto again or an upper respiratory infection for Magnus. The vet decided to give him both antifungal and antibiotics so if it is Blasto we’re not waiting 3-4 days on test results before treatment.
I can’t get a break… Gonna have to get Magnus into the vet today, woke up to him wheezing in my ear and coughing. Could just be an upper respiratory, Could also be early Blasto (again). Could be something else entirely. This is how the Blasto started last time, so no messing.
Yesterday was a bad stomach day… Today it’s cramps and it low blood pressure. Skipping blood pressure med today unless it skyrockets later this afternoon. This is 100% hormome related… -cries-
Endometrial Biopsy is clear of the nasties like cancer. However, it showed that my tissue is waaaaay too high in estrogen. ie I’m estrogen dominant and that’s what’s fucking with me. I get my hormones and hopefully that will fix it. If not there are other options.
