Cuz holy geez its been a hard week. Might be making a core memory with this 😵
Morphi
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Do you breathe the name, of your saviour, in your hour of need?
I thought the so called struggling artist thing came from a lack of money.. it seems to be more of a lack of empathy, human understanding, or -for a lack of better wording- mental illness. Kinda like whst most youth feel about the current job market, not just artists per se..
Atleast learning more about him makes my frequent homelessness and moving situation feel less unusual. Sounds like his job life sucked too despite being surrounded by artisans
Watching some old historical van gogh stuff since i never went to art school. His art before the colorful ones he made were mostly of slaves working in the field, ironically himself being poor too.. I think im missing some stories in between ofc but ive never seen that way and its interesting..
So pray do tell, just for the sake of having a sliver of hope in life... How are you doing? Any new events to look forward to? How are you keeping yourself alive? Please tell me, theres gotta be something that makes life worth living for..
I get told to join muslim groups that have me on their honor kill list, and get shunned by hotlines for not following through with those demands. We live in a very special time...
People can say it all they want; go to therapy, get some help. I tried that last year in november, every day i had some kind of episode, even the hospital laughed at me and said "hey youre supposed to die first before we can step in and help you"
Im awake for about 3 times a week so im not fully aware of how time passes. I either work on my projects, or pray that one day my body shuts down. I dont talk to people as much, knowing its a very negative rhetoric that i live by, when i do, i focus on making the best of it
Every single day i always remember how pathetic i am for not being able to follow through with my attempts, i try not to talk about it but like.. seeing someone i known just do it.. i dont know how to feel
Sorry.. i just got news that someone in my life killed themself. And as a person who couldve made a difference, i feel like i failed them.
I dont want to tell people whats going on, i dont want anyone tk feel anything from hearing it. I dont want to rant, Its just mental illness
Everyone around me is dying. I dont know how much more i can take
Im thinking of making cherubs for each animal.. since i want their animal sidekicks to be called cherubs. Not meant to be biblical, i just thought it sounds cute
Doodling abit last night, thinking of how i want to get little mascot characters for my protags.. i end up using an old childhood style for this one. They ended up looking like tkdb creatures.. #doodles
I downloaded an ai language practice app to learn canadian french. i made the supposed canadian accent AI speak in english, it came out as indian english!! Canada aint beating those hindustani allegations lol
If it does work.. ill clean out this account and try to restart properly ò3ó9
O.O after all my whining and crying, i might have found a way to wake up! Holy moly im excited ;v;
Lo and behold, Im still learning how to talk to friends and ppl. Sometimes i wonder how did i end up joining an agency on one time, just to yap for a few hours..
I just try to find things that bring me hope and purpose. And i hope people continue to hold on to their driving force to live and hold on to those that you love.. not for manipulative or persuasive reasons. But for the reason that its okay to do so.
Probably this is the year where i seen so much cruelty, racism, dehumanization, violence.. it goes on and on. Its scary, and i know im not the only one experiencing it. And im sure im not the only one who shuts themselves down from everyone and walk on eggshells..