I'm so overwhelmed and lost at how to start looking for internship places

The moment a recovery account turns recovery content creator you know they lost touch lmao

dietitian in three minutes fml

Turns out my fucked up blood results are something genetic so i told my parents "hey good news, my odd results arent anything to worry about!" and my dad had a "wait that's sth genetic?? I had the same last time and also unsure why" then i got great news sir!

Was gonna do my standard black pants & shirt with my daily rings, necklace and bracelets to meet up with friends and then realised i dont actually wanna do that so here we go :3

Havent lost shit the past year and the year before i lost 20kg what the fuck

I'm doing embarrassingly bad today and i see my doctor in an hour omfg kill me

Being broke rlly makes it easier to starve because tf am i gonna do groceries with 17 euro

Some of the food i cooked lately :)

Waiting for therapy about to have a panic attack lmao

Period >:(

The scale at home and the scale at dorm dont show the same number which like doesnt rlly matter i suppose but now when i weigh myself at home im just mentally keeping track of the number to see if its going down and not tracking it as my actual weight because 90% the year i use my dorm scale 😭😭

So we all saw that huh

Therapy isnt helping for my ED but fuck it sure unlocked a renewed gender (presentation?) crisis

Sometimes i forget my parents are aware of my ED and then my mom randomly takes me out for lunch and it's like ah. she noticed my lack of eating the past two days for sure

Gained 💀

Ive been so busy omgg august will be the month to lock in yall i swear

Fuckkk i dont remember if i ate much the past days and now i got a little hungry so i bought grapes and ate half the box but now im shaking and feeling rlly dizzy 😭😭😭

Happy !!!

Spent the entireee day at the park today and had a swim in the lake and god i love my friends this was the best day of my life

I dont get how i lost weight so steadily from my hw to my cw and now i cannot for the life of me get lower like what am i doing wrong omg

Havent weighed in two? three? weeks and im fucking terrified

Im so tired of people doing the whole "giving in to your ed isnt sustainable" "you need fuel to live" "without food you'll be unable to do the things you love" what makes everyone think i wanna be alive anyways

Biweekly "i dont wanna do my dietitian appointment there's nothing i wanna talk about" moment

Sorry ive been so busy the past week going out with friends and doing day trips nearly constantly that i have been half assing my cal tracking and now i feel im faking my ed lmfao

Back from camping lets go

All my friends are on my ass about not eating and "you'll faint if you don't eat" and now out of spite i wanna keep going until i actually faint

Havent eaten since lunch two days ago and lowkey feeling fine ngl

I ate thrice yesterday with this camping trip but im gonna skip breakfast today and pray no one mentions it lmao

Lunchhh