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A haiku written in a bar fight. Righteously ratchet. Intellectually ignant. Brutally soft. Black first + a nigga immediately after. Enby femme (they/them/HER) CisQueer • Superfat • Womanist
In 3 days, I will officially be unemployed for a full year. On Friday, I lost my SNAP benefits due to not meeting the minimum work requirements. I ran out of groceries a few days prior to losing those benefits. As of today, I am now housing and food insecure. 1/2
I have a week from today to get the funds needed to keep me safely housed. Please donate if you can or share for visibility. Anything helps!
Aɳɳαɭเรє รкєєƚιɳɠ@myconfatssions.blacksky.app · last mo.I have created a Gofundme as a last resort to ask for the aid of community to stay safely housed and supported through this difficult time. Anything helps, and that includes a share to your network if you’re not able to give. Thank you. gofund.me/bfac21fae
I’m sad af, yes, but I can’t help, but to think: “Nie, why would you go and die at a time like this?” Like all of times, you had to leave now, Pops? 🤣 Man say.
Today is 06/29. In 9 days, I go to court to be most likely be evicted due to past due rent. With no future job in sight and no assistance from anyone, I’m sitting with how losing my last job completely uprooted the stability I built.
I will never get over the fact that America will fund education, healthcare, and infrastructure overseas while backing systems that exploit folks for their land, labor, and resources — all while siphoning wealth from its own communities, allowing us to suffer in the process.
Folks be happy inside that barrel as long as they can stand on top of somebody else. That’s why you gotta realize when mfs wanna keep you in the same place — because your complacency is essential to their fake ass idea of success. They need you stagnant so they can feel elevated.
It’s been such a fun time on #fortnite today with the new #Overwatch update.
It is by design that we forget we have free will, especially under white supremacy and cisheteropatriarchy. Systems built on domination depend on our disconnection from ourselves. They need our obedience, our self-doubt, and our belief that confinement is natural.
Under these circumstances, I lost sight of the fact that I have the power to choose. I can choose what I want, entertain my desires, and decide what I like or dislike.
Aɳɳαɭเรє รкєєƚιɳɠ@myconfatssions.blacksky.app · 3mo agoSo no, it is not that freedom is difficult to access because we are incapable—it is that we are conditioned to forget it is ours at all.
What baffles me most is how, in a world where my freedom is constantly being encroached upon—especially as a Black person, a fat person, and someone who has endured all forms of trauma—it is by design that we are made to forget we have free will.
It shows up everywhere. It not only rewires your nervous system, it alters your DNA. Living in hyper vigilance means living in a constant state of inflammation. Brain, heart, gut - lifelong dysfunctions that require monumental intervention to repair.
Aɳɳαɭเรє รкєєƚιɳɠ@myconfatssions.blacksky.app · 3mo agoI don’t think we talk enough about how trauma affects memory loss and how it impacts our cognitive functioning in terms of how we process information and draw conclusions from the data our brains interpret as truth and reality vs what isn’t.
In order to become a better person, you must first realize how horrible you really are. Not in the dramatic sense, but in the quiet ways you sabotage yourself, repeat unhealthy patterns, hurt people who care about you, or tolerate what wounds you. You cannot grow if you don’t acknowledge it.
Particularly, men. Like they must be terrorized lmao
cutie patootie 🫶🏾@christianaaaaa.blacksky.app · 3mo agoI can’t lie, I do like getting on people’s nerves. I can’t explain it…it’s like an adrenaline rush
It’s ironical that you’ve mentioned something about being able to get back into the driver’s seat. To me, I’ve always felt like I was in a spaceship, but on autopilot, then I got hit (after barely recovering from past damage), and lost that ability. I feel like I’ve been crashing for a while now.
FromTweets2Skeets@holmadick.bsky.social · 3mo agoIt's funny, I use the word "robbed" so much as well. That's what trauma does, robs you of experience, of love, of another life. Once you find a healthy way to mourn the loss of what could have been, you finally find peace...you can get back into the driver's seat of your life again.
All of this talk about grief has brought me here. Wayne experiencing Hurricane Katrina brought him to this point and he defined grief in the only way he could, lyrically and spiritually. When you’ve been through something, these words hit so deeply and differently.
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I believe our minds do “go bad.” Grief is trauma, and trauma alters the brain. Memory, focus, regulation, perception—all of it shifts. In many ways, grief belongs under the umbrella of traumatic brain damage bc loss does not just wound emotionally. 1/2
Your Majesty 👑@the3jsmom.blacksky.app · 3mo agoThank you for naming this bc I truly was thinking my mind is going bad
Grief will hijack an already complicated mind and make it feel like the floor keeps moving. If your brain already works differently—through trauma, neurodivergence, whatever—grief doesn’t arrive politely. It crashes in; scrambles time, memory, focus, language, appetite, sleep, & your sense of self.
Written by Uju ✍🏽@writtenbyuju.bsky.social · 3mo agoI learned this during grief therapy. Since my loss, my mind doesn’t operate the way it used to. At times I feel I’m having an out-of-body experience & things don’t correlate. Things I used to trip over don’t affect me the same way, and other things don’t fully make sense anymore. I don’t know.
I learned this during grief therapy. Since my loss, my mind doesn’t operate the way it used to. At times I feel I’m having an out-of-body experience & things don’t correlate. Things I used to trip over don’t affect me the same way, and other things don’t fully make sense anymore. I don’t know.
Aɳɳαɭเรє รкєєƚιɳɠ@myconfatssions.blacksky.app · 3mo agoI don’t think we talk enough about how trauma affects memory loss and how it impacts our cognitive functioning in terms of how we process information and draw conclusions from the data our brains interpret as truth and reality vs what isn’t.
I have so many holes in my memory because of trauma
Aɳɳαɭเรє รкєєƚιɳɠ@myconfatssions.blacksky.app · 3mo agoI don’t think we talk enough about how trauma affects memory loss and how it impacts our cognitive functioning in terms of how we process information and draw conclusions from the data our brains interpret as truth and reality vs what isn’t.
I am stalled at $15/$5000. I need $220 for my storage unit to not go to auction by Friday. My rent is still past due by two months. Please send directly (cash gift on Throne or PayPal) linktr.ee/myconfatssions
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Aɳɳαɭเรє รкєєƚιɳɠ@myconfatssions.blacksky.app · 4mo agoMy April rent is now 29 days past due. ($683.55) May rent is due tomorrow. ($651) My storage unit will be auctioned off after 05/16. ($120) The rent on it is due again on 05/16. ($100) My utilities are past due and at-risk of disconnection. ($175) To God be the glory! throne.com/myconfatssions
Too often, folks expect grief to look like sadness, tears, and obvious mourning, but more often than not, it looks like forgetfulness, irritability, brain fog, exhaustion, numbness, missed calls, unfinished tasks, and staring at a wall for hours trying to remember what day it is. 1/3
Angelia 🌺@imangelia.blacksky.app · 3mo agoAfter my dad died, I legit googled "does grief make you stupid?" I sincerely wondered if we accidentally buried a part of my brain with him, things were THAT bad.
I don’t think we talk enough about how trauma affects memory loss and how it impacts our cognitive functioning in terms of how we process information and draw conclusions from the data our brains interpret as truth and reality vs what isn’t.
I’m considering going back to finish a degree. I’m 90% sure I’m going to need to be officially diagnosed (neurodivergent) and medicated to actually obtain it.
